-de lil' things-

credits

2009-11-03T11:06:00.002+08:00

this will be the end of this chapter in life. i'll be moving on...................

thanks to my dear friends who had been with through the good times and bad.

life will never be the same again.

thank you, Izzey for being the light of my life till now.

birthday bash surprise

2009-06-29T12:53:00.002+08:00

boyfie and i rented a car for the weekend. we went for a spin and spent time together in the car. on fri, we took my family out for dinner and he took his mom out on sat morning. so we went out on sat afternoon for movie and went for a spin around town.

Sunday was a delightful surprise though. coz i tot he didnt plan anything for me! he said let's just go with the flow when we go out. coz i actually said to him, i'm expecting something for my bday! since we didnt really celebrate my bday together so he said he wanna make it up to me. but there wasnt anything plan on fri or sat. so i was disappointed and pissed.

then Sat, he told me to meet at 9 am the next day, sun. so i waited and waited till 10 am. he arrived at my doorstep singingpaparazzi with the rest of the guys shouting 'SURPRISE! HAPPY BDAY SHASHA!!' i was like, wats the commotion outside?! it was super sweet to see all of them outside my doorstep in the morning.

then we proceed to sentosa for picnic and cake cutting! i have to thank NANA for making the deliciously sweet filling cake and preparing all the food! oh oh, and NANA'S IBU!! THANK U CIK!!

the guys, i know u guys went out on sat nite but thank u for making sure Is woke up early. i mean going thru the extend of sleeping over at faizal's place after he came from reservist and then for the an early morning. awww.........

picnic was so filling coz i ate too much. then LUGE was crazy. the boys were going crazy to win the race. oh well, it was a race amongst them. not us, girls. we were cruising! hahahahha!

i know we all had fun and it was so tiring for everybody that me and boyfie got sick.

so here's a THANK U note...........................................

words is not enough to say how much i really appreciate you
all the complaints, rantings
really regretting it now
realising that it's me whose wrong
whatever u've done for me
i'm grateful u're in life
thank u
i love u, IS

23 years young

2009-06-17T20:46:00.001+08:00

yeahness!! (in the words of brenda) i've turned 23rd with the blessings of Allah that I'm still alive and kicking to witness the day of my birth. hahaha!! SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH! (its a 1st, something religious on this blog)

this year, birthday was like any other normal day lar. wasnt expecting anything but hey, it was nice to have everyone gather for dinner on my bday. hardly see the rest of my family eating together. so its like a reunion lar.

anyways, the fact remains that even when i say i feel like an old lady because of my stupid aching body. i still feel like i'm an 18 yr girl. hahahahahhaha!!! dont feel like an adult at all!! nah, i still get nagged by my parents. my younger sis and bro will check on me time to time and will lecture me if they have to. but!! its not that i dont know how to take care of myself, its just i dun care much so they think i tu-lan! and my bro will msg me asking me wer am i, as if he's the older one! CEH!!

being 23!!! gosh!! 9 more months to graduation! 1 year more to working life! 2-4 years to get married! 5-6 years to have babies! 7 YEARS to the age, 30!! ARGH!!

well, more memories to make in the future...

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

bday?

2009-06-07T23:46:00.002+08:00

its gonna be another day. this is for expecting something on that so called special day. so much for asking a surprise. and indeed a surprise that i got. nothing. every year it lead to nothing special. well, i guess i'm not that special enough to have people appreciate me. oh well, i guess i dun show any bit of graciousness to anybody that the people i love surrounding me doesnt really care if its my special day. its just gonna another weekday. boring weekday that passes by and people wanna get over and done with. let the weekend come. forget about the wednesday that mean something to me. i guess if i gone missing, people wont even notice. he wont notice.

-------let me rot and get stacked within the huge piles of paper.----

weddings

2009-06-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

so its THE season to get married. june holidays are here again and this weekend alone, i went to 4 different weddings. all of whom are completely so called strangers to me. coz i dun even know them except they have this relative thingy with my family. anyhow, all concepts are very different but one stands out the most coz the food was served old-styled. reminiscing the olden days when my parents and older cousin got married and everyone in the extended family helped out to serve the dishes and clear the plates. i remembered playing with water when i was supposed to wash plates and cups... hahahhahaha... the rest of the wedding, normal lar.. buffet style, then food cold. then one thing i hate about going to weddings is these people keep asking when's my turn.. for goodness sake, i'm not even done with school yet. oh well, some even say i looked like mak org... oh well, i look old for my age. but who cares. i like it like this.

so then me and my cousins and my aunt started to talk about weddings. i told them i wanna do it at sce sch hall coz there's air con... hahahhaha... but dun think can lar... just do at CC lar... but the one i went on sat, the CC hall very small.. and the food was cold.... hmmm.... at void deck, too hot.. so hot then i was perspiring that my make up almost wore off.

so much talk about wedding, i dun even know whether i'm meant for him... =(

in a day's life

2009-06-06T15:55:00.002+08:00

so how long has it been?? its been so long since i blog. anyway, i'm busy with my internship la... then back to school for another 6 months... then its GRADUATION, babe!!

but my love life has been great though... baby has been so romantic as ever... makes me feel like i wanna get married with him now... i even ask him to get engage.. ok... i think i should stop now. haiz...

ok there's nothing much to blog about anyway.

oh, i've catched 4 movies in a week. gila kan.... angels & demons, terminator salvation, night at the musuem 2 and moster vs aliens.

orh then, half of the year has gone so it means my birthday's coming. and i'm working. damn!

thanks my lil sis, for treating me swensens for an early bday celebration. eheh.... =)

the period of the month

2009-05-17T20:22:00.002+08:00

i hate this feeling of the month. i hate weekends also. i just cant get things i want. i never ask for the moon or stars. i just wanna spend the weekend with my loved ones but end up i'm at home without them. just like any other day.

i want to understand him but i cant seem to. i want attention but the attention given is just a while. when i want to let go, he's ready to give anything to me. but now, same je.... wait? yar, i'm waiting... still waiting.... and waiting....

i always remember what he says, promises to me. and i'm still waiting. or do i expect too much from him? but wat am i expecting from him? wat i want from him?

i dont want to expect anything from him because i know it would lead to a disappointment if i expect something from him.

argh!!! i'm so damn ~~f*cked up~~. shitty shitty shitty!!!

its over.

2009-04-27T21:42:00.004+08:00

i'm in a confused state of mind. yes or no??

i dun wan to hurt him but looks like i did. all i want is for him to be happy and the best for us. which is to lead our own way of life now. he can now lead the life the way he always want. the space he wants, with no restrictions. i can live without worrying that my boyfriend has the hots for other girls.

i'm really sorry i've let u guys (u know who u r) down and that i've wronged him. i can't live with this guilt with him. knowing that it hurt him, it has also deteriorate our r'ship.

i've loved iskhandar zulkarnain more than i love myself. he's the 1st man to teach me the way of life and how cruel the world out there.

but i still believe he can live without me. i will deal with all the ~~pain, regret, torment, sadness, lonliness,~~ happines alone. guys, be there for him.

me? i just immerse myself with work. ot and more ot. i dont mind anyway.

so for now, no more love story.

***UPDATE***
we're back together with the help of friends.

fed-up

2009-04-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

i'm so damn fed-up. tired. bored. stupid shit!

i hate this feeling!

no, its not boyfie. he's fine. keeping me happy here and there. but its my bloody surroundings! argh!!!!!

busy and its a silent world now.

2009-03-29T11:29:00.002+08:00

Its been quite a while since i posted something. see, my laptop has been with boyfie all this time. and now only, i got it back. even its with me, by the time i got back, i'm super uber tired to actually do anything at all. all i do at home is shower, eat, sleep. i'm just gonna say that i've started attachment alrdy. period. nothing at all. nothing about it at all.

BUT one thing i can post is about my life. to be specific my love life. yes, again. wat to do? this is the only place for me to get it out. i dunno lar this time. he's giving me like a cold shoulder. when i talk to him ,he gives me a sulky face and sounds as if he doesnt wanna talk to me. i understand he's feeling bitter abt the psp but its like he's taking it on me.

wat happened to the psp, u may ask? i've been holding on to his psp, and remember i spilled water on it, and then i got it repaired. and I DID! then it gave problems again, it totally shut down on us. it didn't want to switch ON. can't be switch on at all. DAMN ar!! one problem after another. then he sent for it to be fix but the technician cant find any way to repair to its original state. coz they dont have the modified motherboard or something. wat they have is the motherboard which only can play UMD games, not downloadable games in a memory stick. so he got sian and decided to buy a NEW psp. headed down to sim lim and the salesperson says its modified and can play downloadable games, say all the specifications that my boyfie was looking for. but in the end, he got cheated. the psp he bought also cant play the downloadable games. so he went to get a refund but not a full amount.

DAMN cheater! the guy who sold the psp to my boyfie won't get a good life, i tell u! cheat people money! KNN CCB!!!!! make sure the shop suffer losses and has to wind up!!! if u want to know which specific shop, u come and ask me. call me or email me. KNN!

ADVICE TO PEOPLE OUT THERE!
PLEASE BE AWARE WHEN PURCHASING STUFFS AT SIM LIM! ITS CHEAP BUT THERE ARE RISKS TO BE TAKEN! PLEASE CHECK BEFORE PURCHASING AND IF CAN, BRING AN EXPERT OF WHATEVER U'RE BUYING!

becoz of that stupid asshole, jerk, dork, s.o.b, now my boyfie is not even talking to me in a decent way. i'm kinda disappointed with him on how the way he handle this but i understand his troubled situation. he's always the stronger one in terms of emotional. oh well, so i just have to wait and let the bad air flow away..

fell head over heels.

2009-03-08T21:59:00.002+08:00

suddenly i have this mad rush for cute, charming, gorgeous, KAWAII boys, men!!! boyfie one side.. a while jek... i watched a couple of dvd movies today. so i remembered how i love:

1. Orlando Bloom

2. James Franco

3. Johnny Depp

4. and Takeshi Kaneshiro

i just find the half jap-taiwan guy is super duper cute. he got this gorgeous, captivating, seductive eyes.... arh.....(melting away)

ok, back to reality........................

feel like a princess

2009-03-08T12:50:00.003+08:00

yesterday, i went out with boyfie for a date after long time. i enjoyed myself so much the whole day yesterday. ee... best arh!

we did quite a lot of things together.. hahaha.. just spending quality time together. but i was kinda pissed off with him before we met coz i had to wait for him again. this time i waited for him for 15 mins. i almost wanted to go home coz i didn't want to wait. i was all dressed up. all dolled up with make up wearing a dress and heels. but pity, i didnt take any photos. everytime i ask to take photos he said later, then later i forgotten all about it.

so when we met up, i was all quiet but he suggested to watch movie at the cathay. 1st we head down to pastamania to have lunch. then bought tickets and PS GV instead of the cathay coz it was yraining and i didnt bring any brollie. so we stayed indoors. We window shopped a bit, checked some toys, figurines, those from movies, comics and cartoons. We saw the human size Terminator robot!! and boyfie really loves it and wanted to have it. can u imagine having the huge thing in the house??!! and it costs $10,000 plus. Giler!!

so by the time, we had bought the tickets and went downstairs for a snack. it stopped raining and boyfie brought me to the cathay to eat ben & jerry's ice cream. best best! OISHI!! He did brought me to ben & jerry's at vivo on monday. and yesterday, again! best lar.

done with the indulgence, we watched PUSH. a movie where these people has special powers. its kinda cool at the same time, boyfie thinks its kinda lame. dunno lar he. but i enjoyed watching it. cool lar.

so after movie, had dinner at long john's silver. we headed home. i know it's not like i had a candlelight dinner date with boyfie but the fact that he made sure i wasn't bored and he treated me like a princess. he ordered food for me, held my hand most of the time. it was like the first date i never had. hopefully there're more to come. love u, baby!

quizzy

2009-03-06T11:26:00.002+08:00

I just took the "How much do u love u?" quiz bcoz i'm so freaking bored at home alone and i couldn't be bothered to clean my room or do any of the housework. just have to do it all later.. haha so this is my results... ^__^

According to the results of this quiz, you LOVE you a 71%!!!

PERFECT!!! This is the best score to get! I promise! This means that not only do you actually LOVE who you REALLY and AUTHENTICALLY are, but that you accept the fact that you are NOT perfect to everyone and have flaws which should be kept as a balance, you are a very optimistic and realistic person!! Love ya too already!! Great Job!

How much do you LOVE YOU?
Take More Quizzes

updates

2009-03-04T15:40:00.002+08:00

~UPDATES~

1. I've yet to update about my Japanese ladies.
2. I screwed up my last exam paper. i'm dead.
3. I damaged Boyfie's psp and he's damn pissed off at me. It cost me 50 bucks for the repair and a whole lot of trouble and irritating stuff!
4. I had a class gathering cum Charlyn's B'day celebration on Mon, 2 Mar 09.
(look at the pics)
5. Also, I'm starting my internship soon so I'll be missing in action.

till then..............

kaypoh people!

2009-02-21T22:30:00.003+08:00

I don't understand that a piece of news can spread super uber fast. It's really irritating when its about your own self. Argh, super irritating. Not only that the main info they know, but also the freaking personal details.

EEE!!! GERAMNYE!!!

Akiho & Aiko

2009-02-19T20:33:00.002+08:00

I'm so missing them.
The Japanese girls.
Akiho & Aiko.

I miss saying Oishi, Kawaii!!!!

TGIF

2009-02-09T14:07:00.009+08:00

another day of the week and of coz, end of the week some more. Sue and me went to our usual spot, Al-Azhar for friday lunch.. hehehe... then we head down to McD to revise FMGT... then we got bored after awhile and we took pictures, even recorded me doing a stupid video of Blue's All Rise.

here u go.. have fun laughing at me.. i look so stupid and spastic

this is SUE being bored and cam-whoring using my phone

the both of us

then we took pics of our hair to see what is it like from the back

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and this is the infamous video that sue has been bugging me to upload. spastic me.

WW III

2009-02-04T22:10:00.002+08:00

WORLD WAR III HAS STARTED BETWEEN 2 _ _ _ _ _ _ S.

AND I'M ALWAYS LAUGHING AT THE SIDE. WATCHING THE 'GREAT' SHOW.

**this is the second quabble i know that i'm laughing at**

hahahaha... i know i'm mean... laughing at other people when they fight.... hmm, don't they know that they will kiss and make up again. tsk tsk tsk! then they will realise how silly the argument is BUT on the other hand, i don't think they will coz' both want to win. No one want to give in. tsk tsk tsk! don't want to compromise also. tsk tsk tsk!

but who cares, i'm laughing anyway.

p/s: i'm not saying any names, but if u think i'm saying u then.... who eats the chilli, taste the spiciness, in the words of a malay proverb "siapa makan cili, rasa pedasnya"

2009-02-03T23:54:00.002+08:00

today, boyfie gave me a very grumpy look.

his reason bcoz he's hungry!!! argh!!!! so frustrating!

he always like that seh... ishk!!

i miss my lil sister

2009-02-03T23:32:00.002+08:00

today, i went to great world city with sue. then met up wit my sis whose working at esprit. it's been a long time since we sisters hang out together. so when i got there, i was just in time for her break. we ate, talk and laugh together. spend good quality time with her. not to mention that the food was on her. so was my 'shopping' at esprit. she bought a couple of stuffs. i realised this is the 2nd time she paid for my 'shopping'. i feel so 'awwed', speechless. i dunno.

i seldom see her these days. she's always working, so busy. hardly see her at home. when i'm around, she isn't. when she's home, i'm not.

then on my journey back home, i realised i really miss her. i really miss hanging out with her. i miss having our girly talk everytime before we go to bed. i miss going shopping with her. i miss the times when i ask her opinions whether my clothes match. i miss her lecturing me as if she's the older sis.

blame it on our schedule. blame it on her work commitment and my school commitment. blame it on the fact that we both have our own boyfren to attend to. blame it on the fact tat we all grow up too fast.

and it's gonna be worse if we both are married.

zebra crossing

2009-02-02T15:58:00.003+08:00

what is it with drivers huh? i was walking home just now and had to cross the zebra crossing twice. at both junction, i had to stop bcoz the incoming vechile is freaking speeding!!!! hello!!! DRIVERS, u supposed to be cautious!!

the 1st junction was a huge sand lorry. such a huge vechile and yes, the apek was speeding. had to give a little jam break to stop at the zebra crossing for me to cross.. why drive car so fast, apek?! u fly more faster!! then after that, i cross the traffic light junction which leads to another zebra crossing. this time, taxi uncle. pakcik!! wear shades, action cool but speeding like crazy. catching someone is it? undercover cop driving a cab?? that pakcik drove so fast, he almost knock a sec sch boy. luckily, that boy was alert and walking steadily. if not, i would become an eye-witness of an accident. ishk!!!

i remembered last 2 weeks, on the way back. i was in the bus at clementi and i saw civil defence folks trying to rescue 'someone' or 'something' (i don't know what is it coz there was a crowd blocking it) under a sand lorry. YUP, the big one. tsk tsk!

so folks, please STOP and LOOK left or/and right (whichever the traffic comes from) BEFORE u cross the road. Mind you, please be extra careful if u're jaywalking. worst still!!

featuring the original ZEBRA crossing! ^__^

new hair color

2009-02-01T16:08:00.005+08:00

i got a new hair color!
i got a new hair color!
i got a new hair color!

woohoo!! woohoo!! finally! bye black hair, hello blonde hair.
i'm such a bimbo now... hahhaha.... at least i dun have to worry abt bad hair days, not styling my hair and look weird with the curls going hay wired. ^__^
all i got to do is blow dry my hair before heading to school so it wont turn out messy!

can't see it properly in this pic though.

~~i hate my arms!~~

pissed.pissed.pissed, & bro b'day

2009-01-30T08:46:00.007+08:00

I'M SO PISSED OFF SO EARLY IN THE MORNING!!!!!!

I CAN'T BRING THE PSP TO SCHOOL.

my journey to sch and back home is so long that i need something to keep me occupied. but my mum insisted that my bro wants to play the psp when he gets back. so i can't bring lar. irritating seh. early in the morning tau. i was practically shouting, 'then, when will i ever get the chance to play?' so damm pissed off. oh then, i forgot its his birthday today. arrrghh!! fine, since its his birthday, i'll just let it go. but i make sure i can bring the PSP on monday. he hasn't been to school for this whole week. playing the PSP continuously, non-stop. today then go school. melampau seh!

on another note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AZHAR! my younger bro. ^__^

on the funny side of my friday morning, a chinese lady wanted to give up her seat coz i think she thinks i'm pregnant. hahahahha.... i'm wearing the ever famous black dress which make me like a preggo. the dress my sis bought me at esprit. hehehe... hey its a gift and i like wearing it, even though my boyfie warned me that if i wore any dress, it will always make me look preggo.. tsk!

here's me with the dress.
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so do i look like one?

just us ladies

2009-01-29T15:15:00.003+08:00

these pics i've uploaded is like a month old, i think. i meant to post it up on my blog but i always forget. anyway, sue and i bought ourselves new wallet/purse. watever u called it lar. plus, sue got herself an organiser as well. seeing me always keeping my appointments and important dates on my organiser so she had to get one for herself too...

so can u guess which one is mine?

lunar new year

2009-01-25T21:37:00.002+08:00

to all my chinese friends..

Happy Lunar New Year!! xing nian kuai le!
gong xi fa cai! i can still get hongbao ah.... haha

so weird that i received a msg from some anonymous person...
the text in full chinese characters which obviously, i dont understand, gosh!

ok... tmr got picnic.... yesterday went to mustafa centre... bought myself hair dye, strawberry blonde.. gonna colour my hair with the help of ~~lovely~~ sue. thanks girl. tues go CNY house visiting with boyfie.. hehehe...

blogskin

2009-01-24T14:06:00.001+08:00

I'm satisfied with this blogskin! at last!

i'll update the links soon!

i have to do tarts now. toodles!

breezing through

2009-01-22T01:53:00.003+08:00

Now i know I haven't been posting these days.... busy lar, babe.. with a couple of things... i decided to change my blogskin coz i found it hard to read(and for my friends as well). the previous skin, the font is freaking small.... but the skin nice lar. actually u guys can increase your browser text size. duh~
Anyways, school's back on. Spent the 1st 2 weeks of the year rushing for the dealine. and its over. did my re-test. seriously, the re-test paper was so much easier than the original one. hehehe... and they all claimed that the re-test paper is always more difficult than the one before. sudahlah. crap only. up next is preparing for one of my last project presentation, then i'm FREEEEE from project... -.-" still got exams coming up soon.... argh!!!

ok ok. today has been a quite frustrating day for me... its the time of the month some more. like 'toot'! oh did i tell u, its CNY coming monday and we(my mum and me!!!) just completed 10 kg = 2000 pineapples tart. I'm so freaking exhausted!! the best part is its not enough. still have to make some more. BOLEH MATI!(can die). if i am/own factory, never mind seh!
me writing this, is not to boast around that my mum's tarts are sellable, BUT to let off my steam that i have to do more!!! argh!

ok wat else i missed? arh yes, the freaking snow city tickets. mentioning it now still makes me boils!!! ee.... KNS!(thanks to char, i learnt this) story that another day. i want to sleep alrdy. its 2am. was searching for a suitable skin till now.

enough of rants. I'm also happy coz boyfie bought 3 bags for me. from a garage sale. hehehe. vintage bags that is. i'm still wondering what to wear if i want to use the bags. and i'm also happy coz boyfie is always there. so i should stop thinking of silly things about him.
oh yes. taufik batisah song's Nafasku is so meaningful seh. haiz. whenever i listen to it, it hits my heart and somehow, my heart sank. the lyrics i tell u. fuuh!

Happy New Year. Its 2009!!

2009-01-01T23:29:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps,

Happy New Year!! Let's embrace 2009 with smiles and an optimistic mindset.

We all know how the world has been evolving (very sad) but let's pray that it will be a better year ahead for everyone.

Take each experience we had as a learning point in our life. (someone always say this to me)

bad ones as a lesson.
good ones as memories.

let's move on and work out that resolutions, people! start afresh!

talking abt starting afresh....

Tmr is my bro's 1st day at a Secondary Sch. Although i'm not feeling at the least excited, I'm sure he is. He's complaining to me that he can't sleep... hehe... reminds me of my time in Anderson.. hahah.... i think i'll feel anxious for him tmr, when the time comes. hmmm.... he's a big boy now.... still, i'm proud of him. hahha... we're looking for his sch shoes and we had to find a few places 'cause none of them had his shoe size, 45!!! Finally, mum bought 2 pairs at Haig Road.

p/s: Oops, before i forget. to everyone who sent me sms wishes, Happy 2009 to u guys too. I'm lazy to send sms lar.... so here will do...

Things that really pisses me off

2008-12-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

Things that really pisses me off right now:

1. Crowded buses in the morning during the school HOLIDAYS. (crowded=slow)

2. The amount of money spent on cigarettes. (why can’t they ban smoking and stop selling cigarettes?!)

3. My eyeliner turns watery. No more black ink. (it had to run out when I’m broke)

4. Projects deadline all at the same day.

5. Endless project meetings.

6. Short yet messy hair. (it’s so irritating now, I don’t even know how to style it anymore)

7. School going to start = waking early in the morning for school. ARGH!!!

Some random posts

2008-12-25T02:21:00.003+08:00

hey dearies,

soorryy for not updating the blog after such a long time. Busy, busy, busy. with projects, tutorials(ok, not most of the time), housework, go out, catch up with friends and meet up with friends and just 'lepak'(chill).

a few things happened:

1. Meet & Greet Anuar Zain. I was interviewed by SingTel. check it out. its on YouTube and Facebook. Boyfie tagged along because i made him come. He was awkward, of course. I won the tickets. My parents went for his concert.

2. I failed a test for the 1st time. haiz.

3. Argued and fought with boyfie. this thing always happens. never seems to go away.

4. Worst common test yet. 'cause i'm VERY ADDICTED to PET SOCIETY. i tell u this game is so addictive that i got my boyfie, GFFs, Sue and my bro to play. Hahahaha...

5. My cousin had her wedding on my mum's birthday. 13 dec 08.

6. Went to Batam for a short getaway. Had a hell of a shopping spree. I bought a few things. I should have earned my own money for the trip.

OK, that's basically it. other than that, i'm always out and about. oh yes, not forgetting the infamous zoo trip which i didn't fancy. not sure if there's anything else.

oh gosh, its the time of the year that i'm beginnning to be lazy. i'm giving the 'whatever' attitude to everyone, even boyfie.

happy post?

2008-11-05T13:06:00.002+08:00

someone told most of my posts are mainly sad, angry post.. ranting about loads of stuffs... complained about my boyfie.....

well, its somewhat true... heheheh.....

ok.... i cut my hair last fri.. its freaking short... goodbye long hair...

and i'm sick as hell.... my cough isnt getting any better since eid... so i got worried... and i vomited twice.. all the disgusting phlem came out... yucks!

happy note: I have all my dearest family and friends asking how am i doing.... so blessed to have them.... =)

can someone help me?

2008-10-26T18:45:00.003+08:00

can someone please tell him

i don't have any patience left

i can't wait any longer

i'm going crazy here alone

if we don't settle this,

my mind and heart won't be at ease

it's not fair for me

to wait on him to make a decision

when he's the one at fault

i feel shitty and freaking unwanted

he's outside, i'm at home

playing with my emotions

going up and down

sleep doesnt work anymore

i want to sleep until i cant wake up

i still wake up to shit

thinking of wat happen

i'm not strong as i tot

can someone help me?

its not f*cking poem.

obstacles yet again

2008-10-25T23:16:00.002+08:00

u know how ironic it is when i say all those nice things abt my bf... say all those notes to my bf.... and the fact I said I love him 'forever' and 'always'....

there's something triggered me when my fren, Yuko, said... there's no such thing as 'love u forever'... i was taken aback... and look wat happened........................................................

yes, everyone................. i found out something accidentally in my laptop abt my bf.... history is so repeating itself again and again......................

i'm not even interested to write the details........ i dont know where to start also.......... i'm just very hurt now............ very sad, disappointed.................

life goes on.... let it be a lesson learnt (notes to loved ones)

2008-10-19T01:44:00.003+08:00

been busy with loads of stuff.... school's just started and finished up raya visiting.... ok, i didn't went out with 2 or 3 outings with my old frens.... coz many of the outing dates clash... anyhow, something major happened recently and its somewhat old news but it made an impact on my closest friends life....

here's the thing, this year i made friends with really good people whom i treasure and wouldn't take granted for... i know its kinda too early to say but we've grown so close... the 6 of us... yes, made up of 3 couples... we've been close and spent most of our time together...

so what happened was, 1 of them asked for a break-up with the bf... and didnt turn up for our house-visiting outing... which made the rest wondered why.. coz we all were looking forward to it... to visit each and everyone's house....

3 of us girls became so close like sisters(u know my GFF).. but me and the other one didn't know a thing about the break-up... yes, we shared our problems together coz our BFs are the best of friends... so we tot we could work things out together but it turned out otherwise... I know it was hard for my guy friend to accept that change but so did my GF who initiated the break-up.... they were together for 5 freaking years... i dont think it would be easy for both of them to endure the pain and the hurt... i'm not going into details of why and what happened between them.. its their privacy... i respect them and their privacy... its between the 6 of us...

it was really hard for us girls, me and my other GF to accept the change... I, personally, was in tears when we were trying to solve or rather find the reasons behind the cause of it.... and cried again before going to sleep... somehow, i felt the pain between them coz we've really grown so freaking close... seriously, i never felt this with any of my other friends.... like we're tearing apart... ok, wait... yar, i remembered i cried when i fought with my friends back in ITE and sec sch... ok lar.. i'm soft-hearted... but this is someone else breaking up, not me... its completely different lar....

anyhow, its over.... my BF kept telling me that its over(btwn them, not us) and to get that in my head... yes. I have to adapt to the change and i really hope the 2 of them can adapt as well... to be hurt and all, is every difficult to endure and pass through this period...

and also, its really a lesson for me that anything can happen in life... even though you're together with someone for 5 years doesn't mean you're gonna be with him/her for the rest of your life.... its really sad, btw... to know that someone who truly love, will leave u whether it is ur bf/gf or ur close family members... cherish them while we can... dont ever take them for granted...

i love my family, my BF and my friends!!!

P.S>>>>>>

to my FAMILY : i know i'm not always at home... but u all are always in my heart and mind.. esp, mom and dad... thank u for all the sacrifice u've done for me... life has been hard for all of us these years but we all are happy with wat we have... to dear sis, please always remember our parents whom bring us to this world... and to my lil(not lil anymore) bro, please study hard, ok. u too have a whole new future waiting for u guys out there... i'm going to mine soon....

BOYFIE: 3 years together, u have taught me countless things about life and other stuffs as well... u've always been my motivation and my support.. the only one who truly knows me other than my parents... my family have grown to love u... i hope i can too with ur family... i dont know how things will go btwn us but i'll always hope for the best for us... life is really unpredictable when fate brought us together after being schoolmates in sec sch... memories, arh!! i love u, baby... always and forever... until the end of time....

NH: i'm sorry that i said things which u dont want to say to others but i hope we still can go out as usual with ND... we're always gonna be there for u, ok? don't think abt wat other say esp. him. thanks for the times when i needed u when i fought with my BF....

ND: thanks for the times when i needed u when i fought with my BF.... i love u, babe! meet up soon, ok? and don't keep F angry always!

I & F: u're the best guy friends a girl could ask for... but u guys are still my BF's best of friends... thanks for giving advise and tipswhen i needed one.... heheh.. =)

OMG! the list goes on.......................

SUE: i really cherish the times we have together... at sch, at ur home studying... i really appreciate all ur efforts and concern towards... i know i tease u a lot but i just got used to it and i'll try to cut down, ok? witout u, i won't be able to make through poly!
(and when seeking forgiveness, we cried.... i cant believe we've grown so close)

CHAR, SHAY & CHARlie: hey guys, poly life wudn't be complete without u guys... let's be this way now till we end poly and hope to last even after that.....

D girls(Dj, Noli, Hani): i miss u guys... but things dont seem the way it used to be anymore... everyone of us lead a different life now... i know everytime nak kuar, aku tak jadi... i dont know y it always turned out like tat.... but i really have to attend something urgent on the days we were supposed to meet... i'm really sorry... but whatever it is, i wish u all the best and dont forget this friend of urs....

Sec sch mates: what happened to us? i feel everyone's falling apart... nobody has time for everybody... its like always a few of us when we try to meet... =(

that's all la.... love u guys for reading this and love the people who are still with you... cherish those who are gone and let them be memories....

not much of celebration though

2008-10-07T00:01:00.002+08:00

its Eid or in malay, Hari raya, again... its the time of the year where everyone have fun and be merry...

its kinda different for me this year. i dont find it as joyful as previous years. Yes, my pics showed i'm happy and all... but that's only the 1st day. i dont blame anyone but myself. my bro has psle this week, poor him. there are guests coming to my house but still i cant feel the excitedness of celebrating. i definitely think it's me. cant get to go out much either. everyone's busy. i'm the only bummer, sitting at home, doing nothing. just in front of me laptop all day, watching Jap dramas.

haiz... but there is something i was thinking about on my way home from meeting up with Nisa. She's back from Kuantan!!! so happy, got kaki to hang out with... got bf also like dont want to go out with me. maybe he's starting to get bored with me????

i know my blog technically doesn't have any readers at all but i was thinking on my way home abt this 'thing'~~.. considering whether i should do it or not..... would it hurt others with this decision of mine...~~~~~ haiz...

Eid / Lebaran celebrations

2008-10-03T12:19:00.006+08:00

PICS only....

my little nephewcousins from paternal side

2 dear cousins from maternal side. neighbours too..

more pics coming up soon.... SALAM LEBARAN, y'all!

Late Post - Oppa's Birthday celebration

2008-10-03T11:31:00.005+08:00

It's a 3-day occasion where i celebrated his birthday on 19th sept itself. Brought him to eat at Nana Thai to break fast....

here's him waiting for time to break fast... and has no clue on what's going to happen...

i let him choose his own cake to eat and have... choc cheesecake & new york cheesecake

then on saturday, 20 sept, our good friends celebrated his birthday and faizal's together. A surprise party what else!! It was at AMIRAH'S GRILL. Fun as hell and funny like crazy. We all had fun and super tired. And i didnt really wanna go home... hehehehe.. for more pics, click here.

this is the cake that i bought for him and faizal.

the birthday boys

the present i bought for him. sorry baby, its late. (oh yes, its his new haircut)

ADIDAS soccer boots. what he wanted.

he's a happy man.

hope to have more great years to come.

pics that i used to make his birthday card.

EID MUBARAK / SALAM LEBARAN

2008-09-30T20:42:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI to all my dear friends..
Mohon maaf jika ada terkasar bahasa semasa bergurau dan bersenda..
Jumpa nanti di hari raya visiting... hahahaha....
love y'all!

Tart making

2008-09-22T01:03:00.004+08:00

Hey people,

Salam Lebaran...

I've been busy with tart making this week and also preparing the surprise birthday party for my dear Oppa...
pics of the birthday celebration will be up soon once I get from Nisa and Nana...

to date, we've made 2000 over tarts which was ordered for the coming festive.. i'm so tired and my fingers are numb after making those tarts but i guess it's worth it as there'll be income coming in...

here's some photos of wat we've made...

anyone interested in tarts for any festive, tag me ok??

Birthday!

2008-09-19T01:35:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 2xth BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR OPPA.
May Allah bless you and may ur life be filled with joy and love.
Ur girl is always here for you!
Love you till the end of time.........

Celebrities Look Alike.... hahahaa

2008-09-16T14:17:00.002+08:00

results.... & other stuffs

2008-09-15T23:25:00.004+08:00

yes, i got my exam results today. i was so scared that i flung the module that i ~~hate~~ dislike. but Alhamdullilah, i didn't. I passed but without flying colours again.

Yet again, i didn't get a single A, not that i was expecting it but it was still ok... at least i passed...

YES! I DID! I PASSED!!

now let's move on to the next lap of poly. OK, everyone said the 1st and 2nd year is where u have to strive and score. I'm no smart alex so i know where my standards are unless i studied hard right from the start, example of that would be, no life. SCHOOL, HOME, SCHOOL. SCHOOLWORK, TUTORIALS, blah, blah....

Ok, then how the other people can do it? I guess they dont have any other commitments than school huh?? well, i think i'm content for now. i don't want to feel regret or remorse bcoz i know i didnt give my all this semester so if i cry over the results means i'm so lying to myself lar....

next!

this friday is OPPA's birthday! there's a surprise coming up.... SHHH!!! hope he doesnt read this... hehehe... ~~and we(my GFFs) all so loooking forward to the celebration~~

raya stuffs...........................
to date, my mom and i have made over 1300 and counting pineapple tarts... tats wat i'm so busy with right now... and no, i'm not working this holidays... went for a few interviews but didnt make it... there's this one freaking rude and unprofessional interviewer who interviewed me and so bloody arrogant... didn't even introduce herself!!! what kind of HR or management is tat? SO UNPROFESSIONAL!!! moving on, i also have to make LEMANG for this festive season... but that'll be eve of hari raya.. will be so freaking busy...

look what my tarts turned out..... hehehehe... :)

nice not???

Oh oh... I bought 2 baju raya for myself... one's purple and the other one's black...
Black will be worn on the 1st day... Purple will be worn when i go out with Oppa...
So lucky this year, its not white again.... He tried on purple baju kurung by coincidence and thought it was nice on him so we agree to wear purple together!!!! WOOHOO!!!
Left with tudung stuffs, shoes and accessories to buy.... have to find cheap and pretty stuffs to buy... i'm like so budget seh!

Oh yes, u know how i love facebook!!!! I'm always playing the games application in it... hahahaha... another thing to keep me company or rather busy at home.... hahaha! still got to beat my aunt's score in this game called DROPSUM! love it!!

Birthday coming up: My dear Sis, Nisha - 18 Sept
Oppa, Is - 19 Sept
Lil cousin, Nira - 31 Sept

My Anniversary with Oppa

2008-09-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 3RD YEAR ANNIVERSARY, MY DEAREST!
MAY WE HAVE MORE GREAT YEARS TO COME!
THRU BAD AND GOOD TIMES, I'LL CHERISH EVERY SECOND WITH YOU!

Interview, buttons & mee goreng!

2008-09-03T21:13:00.009+08:00

Today was an early day for me as i've an interview at 930am. but i left my place early coz my cuz, Illia, had the same interview at the same place, only earlier.

So we embark our journey at 8am. i was at her place last night to go through the steps of interviewing with our aunt who happens to be a HR Mgr at a company. so i was a bit lethargic this morning and i got flu again!

Eventually, the interview turned out to be rather simply and laid-back. She mainly went through our CV and asked questions from there. The interviewer had nice eyeshadow and she seemed like a nice lady. Anyway, I hope i get the job. Its the same one as my cuz that the interviewer informed us.

Our interview ended freaking early! We were done by 10am. We walked towards Chinatown cause we were at Raffles Place. Imagine my cuz was fasting, and we walked a long distance just to end it off taking a bus that goes back to where we were. Coz we changed our mind from going to Great World to Bugis instead. Sorry cuz. (p.s, i cant fast lar... girl's stuff)

So we proceed to Bussorah Street to look for buttons and also some chains to make into bracelets, necklaces, anklets.. how cool is that?
I've successfully made my own customised anklet with bells, but have yet to put any add-ons.
I'll post a pic once the anklet is filled up with those nice add-ons.

From Bussorah Street to Textile Centre, we or rather I searched for buttons with 'bling bling'. Oppa wants to have diamond button for his baju kurung this year. We walked into a few shops and the last shop we went, had what I wanted. I'm going bring Oppa there on 1 Saturday... dunno wer lar....

Yesterday was 2nd day of fasting, so I had to cook something for my bro to break his fast. Here's wat I cooked......

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MEE GORENG!!
Its hot! that's what my dad said.
so how? got tokoh2 jadi isteri?

DVD PLAYER & more FOR SALE

2008-09-01T21:30:00.004+08:00

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Syrian Hamster

5 new born baby. 3 weeks old. very cute.

*will get details soon & post the pics soon*

it ain't over till it's over

2008-08-31T17:00:00.004+08:00

its been a torturous week for me. the last week tat is. I got into argument and emotional stress. haiz. i thought i wanted it over but when i saw him on wed to talk it out with him. my heart melted instantly. i love him too much to upset him. i dont know what to decide next. i felt like leaving him and at the same time, i don't want to cause i love him seh...

on my part, i feel like i had to leave him cause somehow i feel that he wants to enjoy now and make more girl friends. so i thought if he wants to do it that way, i rather leave him and get hurt eventually. yes, i get jealous easily and what if he'll leave me for someone else? yar, i dont trust him cause of wat happen previously. i dont ask for sympathy but i wanna pour out my feelings.

so he had to make a deal with me. he said, if i want him to stop that, i had to do my part. which is

i had to lose weight.

i told him i will try and so we had a deal. at first, i thought it was unfair, and i felt like an idiot for me to agree on it. its like making me feel that i'm not good enough for him now. but i considered it again, and decided to try to lose weight for me and him.

so i'm back with him now. its like everytime we had an argument, i want out but come to think of it, i'm silly and running away from all the problems we had.

bad hair day? i dont think so.

2008-08-28T16:06:00.002+08:00

I went to JE swimming complex today. Its been so long since i went for a dip in the pool. It was great, i tell u, plus i went during the evening so didn't get a tan. thank god! hehehe....

Anyway, I had lots of free time at home so i decided to curl my hair before going out (but no point la, coz i get myself wet in the end). But i really want to do something with my hair after so long of bad hair days. SO it turned out like this...............................

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i love this photo(no arh, i never photoshop, its au naturale)

by this time, it got messier.

but i really love curls for my hair. make my hair look fuller. have to wait for awhile before i can perm my hair again.... haiz...

p/s: SUE, ask me how to curl the next time u do.... hehehehhehe......

penawar hati (antidote for the heart)

2008-08-26T16:32:00.005+08:00

I went out to get medicine for my Grans. headed to CGH pharmacy and had lunch there. Nasi lemak at Qiji. DELICIOUS.

Then went ahead to Grans place to pass the medicine to her. She's getting her eye op next fri. Its for her left cataract eye. Poor her, she can't see properly. She's the only grandma I have left.

Anyways, my 'antidote' was to play with Nira. She was asleep when i reached. She woke crying cause i think i wake her up with my voice as i was talking to Grans. hehehehe....

this is pics and videos of cute lil' Nira, my aunt's only daughter.
(Her hair's all messy and stuff, just woke up lar)

sorry

2008-08-25T21:08:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry i've caused u nothing but trouble.
U were right when you said I don't deserve ur love.
Don't worry you won't have to see me anymore.
I don't want to cause you anymore problems or make u angry.

I'M SORRY........................

time out

2008-08-25T15:25:00.003+08:00

u're rite.

its my ego, my jealousy, my arrogance has caused what happened.

i didn't say u're wrong. coz u're rite about me.
i maybe the imperfect person who dislikes every other creature or human tat i think tries to by-pass me.

i'm sorry i dont trust u.
leave me if u want.
i wont bear a grudge against u.
but dont say u wont leave me coz u became close with my family.

i'm no longer appealing nor attractive to ur eyes.
its still the same, old me.

emotionally disturbed.

2008-08-24T20:57:00.003+08:00

To Oppa,

i'm very frustrated, sad and not content at all.. tak puas hati...

this jealousy of mine is burning up in me.
i know i brought it up on friday but i'm not satisfied with it.
yes, i've text u saying u can be friends with them but in my heart, i'm jealous.
the jealousy is eating me inside.
i cant stop thinking how close u would get with her.
knowing that, she always msg u even when its after working hours.
u meet her everyday, spend most of ur day at work.

i maybe the biggest fool. i'm trying to trust u. but i cant seem to.
compromise? if i didnt, i would have made u stop talking with ur girl friends and be a very possessive gf.
butwat special meaning is there btwn us if u can flirt with every other girl?
yes, i'm insecure. tell me which girl isnt?
i have nothing left to say...
watever is going to happen , will happen.... i won't be surprise...

fireworks showcase

2008-08-24T20:36:00.009+08:00

here's some photos and videos of the fireworks showcase we went on Friday.

Enjoy!

i had fun... almost...

its over and done with

2008-08-22T12:08:00.003+08:00

Goodbye to exams.

Hello Holidays!!!!

next up on the list,

Fireworks-watching.
Tree top walk.
Look for a freaking job so i can buy whatever i want. gee, its been so long.
Fasting.
Hari Raya.
back to school, :( but before that let met enjoy doing nothing!!!

hehe

and yes, exam results which is so nerve-wrecking...

Letoya Luckett - Torn

2008-08-15T15:05:00.005+08:00

I've been very down and emotional these days (I've always have been). So every time I'm down, I'll always listening to this song and will cry to sleep (sedih kan). But only after we had our fights, then I'll listen to some Malay jiwang songs. (ok lar, not that jiwang). Some songs that he used to sing to me before we put down the phone (our long-distance phone call btwn Brunei & Singapore, that was 3 years ago). So fast eh? So here's the song I wanna share to all those girls who are confused, in a dilemma. *(NO, this song doesn't give the answer to your dilemma)

A part of me wants to leave you alone.

A part of me wants for you to come home.
A part of me says I'm living a lie.
(And I'm better off without you.)
A part of me says to think it through.
A part of me says I'm over you.
A part of me wants to say goodbye.
A part of me is asking why...

A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be here with you.
And everytime I think we're over and done you do something to get me back loving you.
And you got me just torn.

Torn in between the two. (Oh yeah)
Cuz I really wanna be with you.
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (I really want to be with you)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.
And you got me just torn in between the two. (In between the two)
Cuz I really wanna be with you. (Be with you)
But something's telling me I should leave you alone. (You alone)
Leave you alone.
Leave you alone.

There were no issues when we started out.
It was cool.
It was everything that love's about.
But something happened.
Plus I'm feeling so burnt out.
(Cuz I can't understand you now.) Now oh
(I just can't understand you now.)
A part of me says it's all my fault.
A part of me says "he ain't what you want."
A part of me says to get my bags.
A part of me says I can't do that.

A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be here with you.
And everytime I think that it's over and done you make me fall back in love.
You got me just torn.

So many times I... (I was ready to go)
So many times I... (Had my foot out the door)
So many times I... (I thought to give him a chance, thought he'd be a better man)
Now I'm sitting here and I'm so confused.
Cuz I keep fighting myself for you. (I don't know how much more I can take but I can't feel this way)
(You got me so torn)

LeToya Nicole Luckett (born March 11, 1981 in Houston, Texas), known professionally as LeToya, is an American R&B and pop singer-songwriter and actress. She was a founding member of the R&B female group, Destiny's Child with whom she won two Grammy Awards and released many successful commercial recordings. She later was unexpectedly replaced by Michelle Williams.

- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/LeToya_Luckett

not appreciated at all. (most vulgar entry ever, not for the faint of heart)

2008-08-13T10:29:00.005+08:00

OK! Complains again!

I'm filling up my blog post with my complains again! I'm furious, as always!

this time is about the freaking futsal match that Oppa volunteered me into. It all started as me doing a favour for him but it all went wrong last night.

I got a muscle stretch, i think, i don't know la what's it called but it was bloody painful. I was having leg cramps, aches on my right leg and i still went for the stupid futsal training. BECAUSE i wanted to help Oppa. It seems my effort and time was wasted.

We were playing against another girl's team. nurses VS d.technicians.

My right thigh hurts the moment i ran or kicked a ball. To add to my misery, i fell and got scratches on the knee. Same thing happen to another girl in the other team but she got replaced and was attended to. For scratches?? It was bleeding. Mine too!
But I had to continue to play, in spite after telling Oppa, i really cant play cause my thigh hurts so much. Reason for continuing to play: there's no substitute for me so i had to continue.

I'm not asking to be treated like a princess. But please, try to equal here. Oppa's in charge, yes. I'm not and don't want to take advantage of him since he's my boyfriend. BUT HELLO!! I'm like in deep shit here. I need to rest, my thigh hurts and i got this stupid scratches that bothering me. When the other girl, he can let go but me????

Once the game was over, I wanted to rest and relax my thigh muscles BUT someone has to 'put more salt to the f*cking wound'. I said out loud to Oppa when he asked everyone to gather, my leg hurts, I need to rest, I can't stand it!

This F*CKING, IDIOTIC person had to say, 'Complain, Complain!!'
macam sial!! u don't know anything, u don't know wat happen, just shut the f*ck up!
girls, get this! the one who said this, wasnt a girl but a mother-f*cker who cant speak properly.
ITS A F*CKING GUY! MALE! KNN!!! CCB!!! P*NDEK!! P*KI SAMA DIA!!!

(mulut macam sundal! nak lawan pompan bebual ke! tahu nak kutuk orang je)

I'm not a guy. i don't play soccer like mad. i don't play soccer until i get myself injured to the core. i know my so-called injuries are minor. i cant stand pain. its my life. who are u to f*cking judge me, remark abt me in front of everyone?

here i am trying to do a favour for Oppa, to play soccer for the team, and this is wat i get in return??

That's it. I'm N.O.T P.L.A.Y.I.N.G!!!!! (pegi mampos)

and

TO OPPA,

i'm giving u props for being SO professional in this. Thanks a lot.
well done, good job! If there's anybody who can do that job, it'll be U!
thanks for forgetting me as ur gf last nite and good job on being very professional.

i dont want to share this shit with u on the phone cause i know wat u'll say. so there's no point of me talking to u. don't apologise cause it'll bound to happen again. I don't think u mean it everytime u apologise. so f*ck it!

to those reading and think, i'm a drama queen or i always complain abt my bf,
GET OVER IT!
this is MY blog! i write wat i want.

*****UPDATE*****
p/s: I'm going to watch the match but not playing. I wanna support my Oppa lar. I know I was mad at him the last time but I love him too much lar... yes, yes.. i'm very confused, fickle-minded girl now. but I really really love him lar!!

exam fever!

2008-08-12T01:43:00.002+08:00

I'm down with flu and bad cough. here's the 'good' news, my 1st paper is this freaking friday!!

this is by far, the most slackest of me preparing for the major semester exam. Gila kan!

and hmm, i'm also playing futsal for Oppa. His girls' team not enough people, his 'dear' girls backed out at the last minute. hmmm.... Oppa, don't trust girls too easily. Some of them are learning the traits of men, if u know wat i mean.

Next!! Some questions to be answered;

1. Is it a girl's nature to be jealous if the boyfriend start to talk to other girls without her knowing, and on top of that, he praises other girls instead of praising the girlfriend?

2. Is it a boy's nature to flirt around with other girls even though they have a girlfriend?

3. Is it a girl's nature to ask a lot of questions when they know what the reply is?

4. Is it a boy's nature to take things lightly and pretend nothing happened the next day when he argued with the girlfriend the day before?

lastly,

5. What's the meaning of having a SPECIAL girlfriend/boyfriend when the other party or both parties (in some cases) flirts around??

I've always ask myself these questions but never got the right answer yet.

What's your say on this?

p/s: ok, i'm better get back to revision. Later~!

worst of them all

2008-08-05T20:55:00.004+08:00

My argument with Oppa made me realise a few things about my relationship with him. He maybe a demanding boyfriend who wants the girlfriend to listen to him all the time but his main intention was to make me happy now and for the future. I dont agree with him sometimes but his intention is good.

I thought i can pull through this and end it all for once but deep down in my heart yearns for him. I kept telling myself that the next time it happens and i got hurt badly, i'm gonna leave him. I was cool, no tears until Sunday night. I can't sleep for some reason and was awake at 2am. I started to text him and assumed he was asleep. He replied though, we kept texting each other till about 430 in the morning.

I can't hold back my tears when he told me not to leave and torment him like this. I'm not going to reveal too much on our conversation coz i wanna respect him as a person and sort of our privacy.

It all started with a disagreement on his expenses and that birthday party which i was supposed to attend. He sent me a text asking whether i wanna go out with my GFFs and their BFs. So i forgo the party and looked forward to go out with the people i loved spending time with. Ever since Oppa introduced me to his friends and GFs, i grown fond of them. They're really fun to be with. Anyways, back to the topic, since i forgo the party and anxiously waiting for Oppa text to go out, he didn't text me or call until it was 6pm when i sent a text. He was sleeping and decided not to go out instead.

I WAS DAMN FURIOUS, OK!

make me wait for u, then u say don't want to go out! I could have gone out for the party, right? but, he said instead we should go for the party instead since we dont have to use our money to eat and all.. HELLLO!!! if i'm going to the party, i would want to go out earlier and buy something for the birthday person lar!!! the party starts at 7pm, its about 630pm when he decide we should go for the party. tell me, wouldn't you be freaking angry!!!???

So argument started, yada yada yada......

I told him I so pissed at him that I don't want to meet him on Sunday 'cause we have soccer every Sunday at Pasir Ris park. But he insisted that he wants to come. I really told him off that I really don't want to meet him. He's so persisted and stubborn. That's 2 things i dont really like about him. Always wanting to do his way.

On that fateful Sunday itself, imagine we were both at the same place together in front of my family and yet i didn't utter a single word to him. And so, being the insecure girlfriend that i am, i checked his inbox in his hp. (go read my old posts, and u'll know why) Girls again! Different ones some more! I was hurt, disappointed, frustrated and filled with rage!!!!

I FELT LIKE CRYING, IN FRONT OF MY MUM!

I held it back, and argued more with him that night. I asked for a break-up 'cause I had enough! We exchanged texts and i managed not to tear. Even i was surprised, ok! But what changed my mind was, how my love for him is stronger than i thought and how sincere he was when he called. When he told me, he would love me till the day he die, WE cried together. I could hear him cry. Call me, weak and i admit it. He, Iskhandar Zulkarnain, who has change my life, my whole being as a person throughout my time with him. I don't think i can make it without him.

There won't be a wedding

2008-08-03T15:59:00.000+08:00

yet another argument so fat hopes on a wedding. i want out!

CRAZY wedding (Response to Sue's blog post)

2008-08-01T19:48:00.008+08:00

This is a response for Sue's entry on marriages!

I know now its not the time to think about all this things cause exams are around the corner.

As she said in her blog, (hahah) that i wanna wear a chinese wedding outfit for one of my wedding photos. BUT, the photo she put wasn't exactly what i had in mind. so i decided to google and found the one i want.

here it is....

http://c3po.barnesos.net/~polaris/ChinaWed/Imperial.html

i know, i know... very corny.. but Oppa and i will wear that... so funny lar....

and also maybe i would wanna wear Korean wedding outfit, Hanbok, but the make-up looks scary ar...

and last but not least....

Oppa decided to wear this when he comes to 'claim' me....

http://www.buystarwarscostumes.com/uploads/darth_vader_authentic.jpg

and with tat, we're not using 'kompang'/hadra, he wanted to have a bagpipers march behind him.. haiz.... gasak ko lar nak!

http://www.standrewsepiscopal.net/Images/bagpipers4.gif

while he's wearing the darth vader costumes, i tot of wearing this in return but somehow the make up turn me off... and i like the one in white! like gown eh? but the make up still look the same... SUE tell Maiya that she needs to know how to make up like this... see below***

http://www.buystarwarscostumes.com/uploads/queen_amidala.jpg

http://imagecache2.allposters.com/images/pic/Postcards/LC1013.JPG

this is indeed the craziest wedding i would ever dream of having... its like, this morning I was talking abt wedding to Charlyn and then with Sue on our way back home... ahahhahah.. i gave her suggestions while she was thinking what to wear for her 'malam berinai' or nowadays its just studio phototaking!

p/s: i told Char and Sue that if ppl can do their henna till the elbow, i wanna do my whole arm! ahahha sounds and will look stupid lar... then as for the legs, not up till the ankle but till the knee!! wakakakakaka!!!

The Brazil Match on Monday

2008-07-29T13:49:00.003+08:00

Yes, I went to watch THE match on Monday.. hahaha.. was not a big fan but Oppa bought tickets so went there to had fun.. here's few facts about the Brazilians.

1. they were good compared to the Singapore players.
2. they run like crazy, so fast.
3. great stamina. hahahaha
4. Ronaldinho was on the meatier side.

Oppa said he ran like my little cousin, Imam, who is in Pri 1. ehhehe..

here's the pics lar.. not up close though...

It is NOT the wedding of the year

2008-07-25T20:55:00.005+08:00

Please eh, if u ask my close friends and relatives, they would know how i totally don like Norfasarie....

I JUST DO NOT LIKE HER. (there are reasons and i'm not revealing)

Ok, i'm not gonna touch on that and get myself in trouble.

So her wedding is THIS week. Personally, i think Baihakki is cute. Tell me which girl would decline Bai as their bf?? I've seen Bai up close but don't know him personally. I've seen him in the early years of his football since he was in the SG under 18s. Such a waste to be married at a young age of, what 25, 26, for a guy leh.... Aiyo, like kena brainwashed like that...

But then again, who am i to judge, rite?? Its their life....

and i cant wait for my wedding.... HAHAH!

p/s: XX & DY got interview on thurs and fri respectively. their case is still on and all over the net. go google!

This Pervert reminds me of Sue's stalker guy

2008-07-25T20:09:00.002+08:00

I was browsing through STOMP site for juicy stuffs on ugly Singaporeans at their best.

The latest 'news' or so-called is about this pervert calling girls, getting details from them.

Difference: Sue's stalker and this pervert is that this pervert talks and engages in a conversation.

Similarities: Stalker and pervert talks in a horny voice tone. YUCKS!

here's the link, check it out.

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=28663

Presentation OVER!

2008-07-23T21:16:00.004+08:00

FIT presentation is over! The big, leceh one! The one where everyone has to wear formal and convince the tutor that we are selling the proposal!

ITS OVER AND DONE WITH!!!!

I'm oh-so-very-happy that I don't need to stress over anymore trivial matters with other people on the other side of the 'world'.

SUE, don't worry i'm not angry at you anymore, i love u!
CHAR, don't be angry, we are behind you, ok?? GO MACHI!!

Next thing to worry is the exams, haiz!!

XX vs DY

2008-07-23T21:01:00.002+08:00

It was on the news and all over the internet, forums and bulletin..

The war in on! Bloggers Xiaxue and Dawn Yang is fighting. Dawn is suing Xiaxue over defamation. Something I learnt last semester, BLAW.

Anyways, go to this website, XX vs DY, where all rumours and supposedly scandals they each have.. I've been visiting that site since it started. Everytime I'm online, the 1st site I go to is that webby... so addicted to it but Oppa said I'm obsessed. Ok, then I was stunt for awhile and quickly close the browser and went to the webby to check for updates. hehehe..

I'm not here to dish out anything but I love reading Xiaxue entries on her blog, so i wanna see how this goes.

As I mentioned earlier on my other post about them, i prefer Xiaxue as a blogger rather than Dawn so I really like if Xiaxue to win the case.

Just google both their names, you can info on the cat fight which started since late June.

Chronicles of SUE!! Part II

2008-07-16T14:53:00.002+08:00

Attack of the Stalker

Nisa SURPRISE birthday party!!

2008-07-15T12:17:00.003+08:00

My dear GFF, Nisa.....

Happy 24th Birthday girl.... poor her... she was so disappointed with Izzam, her bf, when they celebrated her b'day on 10 july itself. she only get a bouquet of flowers and a plush toy... she was complaining abt Izzam and sounds so disappointed.... heheh... padahal..padahal... she didnt know the rest... Both me and Nana were hoping she can wait for one more day for us to surprise... and we did......

Gerl Frens Forever... heheh

tats from me and Oppa

*WIRE*!!!! (she didnt know what's coming up and what's the wire for?)

PSP, Lavender Purple!!!! from her boyfy lar.... so swit, aint it?

and yes, we girls are close... our boyfys are ~~bored~~ jealous with our closeness. heheh, girl power VS boy ego.....

Chronicles of SUE!!

2008-07-11T11:05:00.001+08:00

The Shocker!!!

The Kiss of Love

Girls day out!

2008-07-08T11:20:00.006+08:00

I went out with my BFF the other day... yes yes.. very Paris Hilton.... hehehe.... we celebrated our belated bdays... exchange gifts and i got a Mango white bag... arggh!!! so shocking coz i dont buy Mango stuffs....

I went out with my long time BFF, Amelia... we catched up some stuffs coz we are both busy with our own stuffs... heheh... i know i know, BFF is someone like u hang out everyday but hey, this is my version lar... Amelia's like my best friend since forever, but she got thinner sey.. yes i'm envy!!

this is some pics of us

Amelia & Sharul

Our 'charm' bracelet... ehehhe

See how slim she is... we were of the same size when we were kids....

shows that i'm really fat... oh gosh.... more girls outings posts coming up....********************

its been a long weekend

2008-07-06T21:55:00.003+08:00

i only went for Tax lecture on friday... skipped MA1 tutorial and FIT lecture... AGAIN!! Sue said Ms.Lee hinted someone gonna get debar, so we assumed it was me. if i'm not wrong, i havent been attending MA thrice... if i didn't count wrongly... I'm SOOO screwed la! SOO dead! so now waiting for the letter to arrive................ warning letter.....................

anyways, its been a fun weekend and a dreadful one coz i had to go to a wedding reception of someone i dont even know... hmm, pisses me off.. coz i really wanted to go out with my Oppa.. to bugis and hang out with the rest of the gang...

mum bought a printer for me, so now its easier for me to print notes and other stuffs... cool eh.....

during the week, i read xiaxue's blog... she mentioned about dawn yang, another blogger...
I've always been reading xiaxue's blog and really enjoyed her posts... dawn's blog is boring lar... anyway, back to xiaxue post... she mentioned dawn yang and sorta spilled out all dawn's secret... which is so interesting lar... things i never knew about... never been a reader of dawn so duno, dun care lar... but xiaxue's really gd at writing... expressing her views and opinions which i find very realistic and someone whose very direct... just check it out.. hehe....

stressed out but loved

2008-06-29T23:40:00.004+08:00

i have been posting lots of happy moments lately. so now, i'm posting a rather on-the-other-side of emotions. which is apparently not only sad, but anger, frustration and rage. all mixed together like the famous dish here in Sg, rojak.

its been really stressful these days. school's back and i hardly go for lessons. the 1st week, i only went to sch for 2 days. don't ask me why... i hate to answer. there are really bossy people out there that i just cant stand. and its the start of a new term and i didn't really feel the holidays. it sorta passes by. so some adjustments there. plus, this is wer i become a bummer who does nothing. yar, i have personal things to attend to. yes! and dont ask what is it. just leave the personal stuff aside, can?

anyways, projects deadline are nearing and it is NOT the best feeling ever. i hate deadlines. why must there be such stupid things? back to it, projects, projects, projects! how i loathe it so much?! on top of that, assignments come in to pile up the workload. as if tutorials aren't sufficient enough.

i'm stressed with school work and home. arguments at home is so frustrating when the blame is pushed to me. makes me guilty lar, makes me feel unwanted lar. its like the worst feeling u can get after all the stress with sch shit!

i have no one else to complain to(except here) but pour it all out to my Oppa. i cried and told him how i felt. he's not the most romantic boyfriend u can ask for but he gives advice and gives me a 'slapping' on reality. facts that are real and what's gonna happen. even though, he may seem harsh but i know he's concern abt me and he really cares.

i've always complain how unromantic he is and how he doesn't understand the situation. when every time i talked to him, its always been a one-way communication. but today, he was feeling me y'all! (in the words of an african american)

i guess he's the one who understands me and supports me emotionally. i know its very dependent of me but whatever i do, i always think of him.

End of Birthday week

2008-06-22T23:10:00.002+08:00

To my dearest people and truly loved ones,

Thank you oh so very much for all your birthday wishes.
Early ones, just in time, late ones which includes deliberately and not deliberately.

This year birthday is a bit different from the past ones. I feel like its just another day passes me by.
I know I've grown old. Just that, I just feel its not that special anymore. hah!

But never the least, I really appreciate everyone's wishes and surprises... I love you all...
Even though, I don't feel any special.. U guys made it special for me..

MUACKS!!!

LOVE,
toreque

oppa, I'm not 23 yet!

its my party

2008-06-17T15:12:00.001+08:00

I've turned 22 this year and this day.. gonna spend the later part of the day out with my Oppa and friends.

I have no idea what is up. Half of the day has gone. I woke up at 2pm, couldn't sleep till like 4am.

So let's see what is up..... can't wait..... and my after-so-long date with Oppa on Sat.

'Shoot-Lah' Laser Quest Competition

2008-06-15T23:03:00.000+08:00

Finally, pics to the event of the semester!!! my event!! HAH!

Shoot Lah Laser quest Competition

Ngee Ann Polytechnic Graduation 08

2008-06-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

Graduation 08

lots of stuff happening

2008-06-13T19:20:00.003+08:00

a lot has been happening lately. that's why i'm missing in action here.

1st up, common test are over. thank god for that. MA paper was a killer. RFA and TAX was still ok, though I made a few careless mistakes. usual me.

then the 5 of us, went to become student helpers for Ngee Ann Poly Graduation 08. How cool is that! We got to eat together dinner with the graduands. hehe.. i know, tak tau malu kan!!!

anyways, i've been stressed out like completely cause of my event, the Laser Quest Competition which was yesterday. (pics will up soon)
Seriously, anyone who asked too many questions gets an annoyed face and bloody angry voice answer from me. I've got people backing out in the last min and people not paying before the event. Short of money and all the little hiccups. Fed-up seh!

But all in all, everything went smoothly than expected. and Captain Lee was around, thank god.

on top of all that stress, someone just have to make it even worse but lucky i have other things to worry about. hmmm........

*pics coming soon*

my worst work experience

2008-06-01T19:59:00.001+08:00

get this..

of all my work experience, my last work was THE WORST!!!

i only worked for 2 weeks, and got paid for 75 bucks!!!

tempat cam sial...

wer? a call centre!!

reason for quitting: cant get a few hours off the roster! f**ked-up management!

cant believe they cant let people get off work earlier.

keep bloody saying 'I have more than 300 over staffs so i may not put you on the roster on some days'. If you have f**king 300 staffs, why cant u find people to cover the cocked-up roster??!!

just go to show that incompetent and inefficient you sickening people are!!!

so people getting a job, here's an advice, before signing the employment contract, make sure you have the same set of contract cause the one they usually give u to bring back is pages less than the one u signed.

SO BE CAREFUL!!

pics (oink2!) and all

2008-05-10T16:06:00.004+08:00

ok, i know i promised to post pics of me and my i&e class going to bukit timah. sorry that it took me so long.. been really busy with lots of things. tat is my new work and sch... i have yet to post something abt my new job.

so here's the pics, me as ugly as ever.

no, going bukit timah doesnt need the train.. we just pass the tracks.. the ones going to m'sia.. not the SMrt tracks...

and this is not the entrance to bukit timah hill, so state land we came across.. my class mentor, Captain Lee took us to a deserted road towards bukit timah.. a shortcut.. actually the road is along some private houses.

our tired faces after walking and climbing a whole lot of stairs. i was out of breath and shivering due to all the energy i've used up to carry this heavy weight of mine, but i was cursing and swearing at the same time... haha

a little stream in the forest. I remembered the other time i went with Is and my bro, Aja, we didnt came across any stream. but its nice to see one..

this is just what we have covered.

(little) miss poo poo

games by Captain Lee

Captain Lee saying his piece

i know the pics are unclear.. but actually wat i wanna show is, these monkeys are picking out lice from another one's ass... euw!

an accomplishment!! hahah.. at that time, i've realised just how unfit i am..

after a nice shower.

thats char, me and sue! us girls always stick together.. sweet aint it?
after aerobics. yes, guys! i've joined aerobics as a cca!! unbelievable but its true. one way to stay fit and lose a bit of weight!

after bcomm2 fashion show, we're the emcee but i was super awkward! dressed up just bcos of it!

our top UNGLAMOUR models!

match made in heaven!

wedding anniversary

2008-05-06T14:50:00.004+08:00

it was mom and dad's wedding anniversary on mon. I end school early and dad picked up me from school. hahaha.. dad had rented a car for the day's outing. nisha finally came back home.

so we spent the day eating at west coast. i had lunch there, followed by 3 games of bowling. so fun.. my wrist still hurts but i played anyways. managed to got 3 strikes and a few other spares. then we went to vivo and get some stuffs... some window-shopping, photo-taking...

finally, dinner at east coast lagoon for satay but our favorite satay stall wasnt open. we had to order from 2 different stalls to try the satays. Sadly, none of it was delicious. it was either the babat is burnt or the satay gravy sucks. One satay gravy look like curry.. yucks.. i ordered roti john though.. favorite!!!

here are the photos:

2008-04-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR SYAHID!!!

HAPPY 2O something!!!

haha... may all your wishes and dreams come true...

Bukit Timah Hill, I&E outing

2008-04-22T11:13:00.001+08:00

went to Bukit Timah on Monday...

super tiring and i felt super weak climbing up the long high steps there... stupid stairs.. now i hate stairs.....

pics to be uploaded soon..

p.s: 1st aerobics class tmr... how cool is tat!

yet another outing for me.

2008-04-20T19:50:00.003+08:00

this time, its with the daredevils... went to billy bombers to celebrate jiahui, toh toh, syahid and chee yao(i hope its the correct spelling) birthday... APRIL babies....

the restaturant was packed with us... a whole bunch of ppl....

pics to proof it....

i know syahid was oh-so-very-happy that day... but he's kinda mad at me coz i didnt attend sch for 2 lectures... hehehe... love ya, syahid!

make-up again

2008-04-17T19:24:00.001+08:00

yes, again!! thanks to Sue's sis, i got make up applied to my face again... saw the photos on the previous post... that make up was their practice to do 'smokey eyes'... heheh

this time ard, i got sue and my cuz, illia, to have the make up done.. here's the thing, when they(the make up students) wanted 'models' to have make up applied on, they called me and sue.. i had to find them another girl for them.. so i got my cuz to stand in....

we didnt know what kind of make up would be applied until we reached there.. sue's sis make up coz is at Fatimah Mohsin, the wedding gallery. if you dont know, this is like the popular malay make up artist and wedding services since they sponsored a show at Suria.

ok, back to the make up thingy.. heheh... we were laughing our heads off when we got to know that they are making up for an old role... meaning i have to LOOK OLD!!

here are the pics...

hhahah.. let's see whether i look like this in the years to come..... hmm.......

A not-so-perfect day

2008-04-15T18:37:00.005+08:00

Spent the Sunday at Sentosa. Oppa has 3 free entry so i wanted to take a dip in the sea. But as always, things just has to go wrong. IS(oppa) made us wait for an hour. he left his house late, slept in the train and overslept and missed the station. i was really pissed with him that day. here i was thinking to soak in the sea with him. when he reached, he said he didnt promise me to swim in the sea. bcoz he has sensitive skin, u see...

oh well.... when we reached pahlawan beach, it was dirty filled with seaweed and oil particles, i think... so i decided not to swim.. haiz... oh yes, i remembered i didnt talk to him much until we reached the merlion to talk some photos... really pissed with him lar... coz i really hate it when he always make my parents wait for him... never mind the fact that i always waited for him.

so here's some of the pics i took with my hp.. mostly my pics with him are in his hp...

my bro was so happy tat day.. it's his 1st time there... i should take him out more often.. poor boy!

my different face. take a look.

2008-04-14T22:06:00.002+08:00

my face with thick make-up

2008-04-12T17:01:00.003+08:00

the rest of DareDevil family...

DareDevils Oei!! BAoc 9th-11th Apr

2008-04-12T00:52:00.003+08:00

BAoc has come to an end. its been a hell of a time spending 3 days of activities. i'm freaking tired but i made new friends. i have to admit its so much better than my own BAoc last year. haha. memories are created, new friendship are born. and school starts on mon. hmm..

anyways, DD won best banner award. ouh, the pageant.. there's this girl from the avengers, i think, had really big boobies. and was wearing the v-neck dress. no bra, just dress to cover. fuhyo!!! so young got big breast! want to challenge me ar.. hahah...

my grp's performance was superb! i so enjoyed it. they are a great bunch of ppl. i know i didnt help much, but my praises are for them all, even the SCs.
congrats to Josephine for the best SC award.. haha... she was so damn shocked lar.. she didnt move like an inch when her name was announced!

c ya around, guys... we'll 'lepak' again soon!

*pics coming soon!*

draggy, tiring day (leave him or not to leave him??)

2008-04-07T19:29:00.003+08:00

didnt get proper sleep last nite. slept ard 3am and still cant sleep properly. when i woke up, its alrdy 6am. sch stuffs isnt interesting, some talk from lecturers. got home early. i just wanna coop in my room. mood's not so good. still grumpy and down from what happen. talked to charlie abt this. even he said about the MSN thingy (the reason why me and my bro is blocked on his msn is, GET THIS, msn randomly blocked the contacts), is plain bullshit. how coan randomly be such a coincidence?

we talked over sms cause he's working. and everytime he said sorry, give him another chance, i would let him but it happens again.

journeys on the bus seemed short today. listening to my songs in my MP3 makes tears pooled in my eyes. i really dont know whether my mind's thinking straight today.

leave him or not to leave him??

i wanna get over this but i cant seem to get him out of my head. we've been together for 3 yrs, and to let go of this, makes me think and consider.

what a loser i am

2008-04-07T01:08:00.003+08:00

how to know when your boyfriend's cheating on you. i have lots of questions in my mind right now. i just google it just now. so many popped up. i really feel like i'm such a loser right now. trust him? i'm trying to. or is it that he doesnt have the balls to break up with me?

i mean i still remember asking him for a break-up not too long ago. is he regretting it that i didnt really separated from him? (he never reads my blog so there's no chance he's reading this) why am i feeling this way? gd question. the answers are i went through his hp, my laptop internet history (cause he used it throughout the week), his MSN and his MSN history of conversations.

here's what i've find out,

1.he goes to this WAP chatting service, mygamma.com
i know he's been going to this chatting thingy but i just didnt know what/where it is from. i checked it out on sat on the web.

2.he spent the weekend at my place. i'm always waking up late these days (its the holidays) so what i got was him going to alamak.com. he chatted morning and night when i was sleeping, babe. but i dont know how long he was online.

3.his MSN chats are with 3 different girls but all are short ones lar. thats ok, i dont think that's a big issue. but it was last time.

OH oh!! here's the best part! he blocked me and my brother in MSN. am i that annoying??!! for god's sake, i'm his freaking GIRLFRIEND!
i couldn't be more shocked when i see that my contact was blocked.

fine, say whatever you want, i'm not trustworthy and i dont trust him cause i looked at his personal stuffs even though he doesnt look at mine.

FUCKING SO WHAT???!!!!!

tell me how to trust him like that (now i remember why i wanted to break up with him so many times and yes, there's more than a 1st, ok!)

so now i know i'm such a loser and my boyfriend thinks that i'm boring cause he doesnt talk to me when he's bored. and most of his hp msgs were other girls which i dont know of. and get this, they msg around the same time as me but he only replies me one or two words and msg a whole chunk to them instead. and yes, i look through his hp!!!
i dont freaking care now! invade his privacy, my ass!

a day out with family.

2008-04-06T23:48:00.012+08:00

this is the 2nd wk in a row that my Oppa spent the weekend with my family.

i wanted so much to eat at Popeye's and i got to eat the fried chickens today. actually, like not enough. i want more of the fried chickens and the cajun fries.. whipped potato is also nice , and oh yar, not forgetting the coleslaw... hmmm... just talking about it makes me drool again.. hehehe...

Popeye's @ Changi Airport Terminal 3. 10 pcs of chicken for 5 persons eating was not enough.. hehe..
so before we went to another place to eat.. we walked around T3 and take a look at what's everyone fussing about.... photos to proof it...

booooooooring

2008-04-05T01:32:00.004+08:00

call me arrogant, a snob or watever. i felt so out of place today. its just one of those days when no one talk to u. treat like an alien. and u start to think that everyone talking about you when u r not around. yes, today was that day.

had to go sch for rehearsals, and charles didnt turn up. syahid away for camp. who else can i talk to. but for those who know me, clearly knows that i rarely start a conversation unless they talked to me 1st. yar yar, they always say 'get out of your comfort zone', mingle with people around u. but what if, they dun want to talk to u when u actually tried to talk in the 1st place. i mean i dun deny that i talk very little but i did try.

by the end of thing, orh ok, it was ard evening. i just couldnt take it anymore. i got out of tat place and left. i went to meet my Oppa. he got dance practice at his colleague's place so i went over. it was close to DJ's house but i got lost and had to go back where i started from. finally when i reached the place, i felt relieved coz i know these people. yes yes, in my comfort zone even though its Oppa's colleagues. they are nice and harmless.

oh yar, oh yar... being the gd soul and all, i lent them my bag filled with my personal stuffs in it for the rehearsal. and when i got back, my shades were into TWO freaking pieces. argh!!!!! luckily, it's one side of the screw came out. i gotta fix it tmr. too tired to do it now, and too angry.. well, maybe not angry but just damm pissed!! "Dumb ass! pisses me off!"(adapted from Walter. Jeff Dunham's puppet, watch the vids lar)

thinking of spending time with Oppa tmr, but scared that he'll be tired from his event. hmm, i'm really thinking of treating him a nice meal. its been so long since i pamper him.

**Happy Birthday to CT Aishah**

my new K850i

2008-04-03T13:58:00.006+08:00

i just got my new phone yesterday at SingTel's hello@shop. its the Sony Ericsson K850i. so cool. 5 megapixel camera. woohoo!! there's 3 buttons are sensor-button or is it the touch button. anyways, got it for 298 bucks. from my pay. hmm.. well, tats the big treat for me this time.

so right now, i'm wanna find a part time job so the money keeps rolling in. but its so hard to find a suitable job that wants a student. coz i'm so over f&b work and some retail work, just crap.

ouh, and my mio tv at home has KBS channel which is so cool lar. it has English subs for the drama. argh.. i'm so gonna be glued to the tv now. and not forgetting my new phone. hehe.. cant wait to take pictures with it. its totally like a digi cam ar.

lets see, wat else. ouh yes, i've changed my mobile number.

new look, babe!

2008-04-01T22:53:00.003+08:00

hah, it took me almost a day to do this. i changed my blog template from the html to xml. i searched a few blog skins but for hours lar. hahah... i also added new links and videos. i'm going to put some pictures soon. ouh, and there's a stats counter to know how many people are viewing. though, my blog isnt a hit but kinda cool to have one. when i get bored, i'll change again. hehehe..

anyways, got my pay.. woohoo... i'm so getting that Sony Ericsson K850i tmr, if not, thurs. Oppa said we will get ERS money this month. duno whether its true or not. but we'll see.

at school, Baoc is coming. freshmen orientation lar for biz students @ NP. syahid and me sorta in charge of the dance performance. so i'll have to teach the rest of the people in our grp learn to dance. hehe... talking about dance, Oppa also dancing for this performance that he has at work. he's dancing to Flo-rida's Low, haha... the baoc's dance is Britney's new song, Break the ice and Soulja Boy's Crank that (soulja boy). and yes, its the dance from the song itself. ouh, school's starting soon....

plans

2008-03-26T21:04:00.002+08:00

ok.. here's the thing... my job's finally over... things that i hafta do...
1. waiting for my pay (only with this, i can proceed to other stuff listed)
2. finding another part time job (but not urgent, for the fun of it)
3. lose some weight that i've gain (i always say this but never do it, I have to do it this time!)
4. go sch for cca points (argh!)
5. get the Sony Ericsson K850i phone (5 megapixel camera, babe)
6. buy something for my Oppa (its been some time i havent buy anything for him)
7. buy some new shoes (the flats ones & the wedges)
8. buy some new tops for sch (for mix & match)
9. colour or highlight my hair (still considering to do which one)
10. change my bed mattress (with my parents chipping in, hehe)

gosh, how like tat?

what a drag!

2008-03-20T23:48:00.002+08:00

me and my hopes full of anxiety thinking tat today would be last of eating lunch and working at cisco... things just have to go wrong when he said tat we need to complete the job so he's extending the deadline till tuesday... gd news and bad... more money but more work and more cars... GOD! please have mercy on us..

this is by far THE most boring job tat i've ever done.. schoolwork wasnt this boring as i remembered seh.. haiz... wat did i do in my previous life to get this...?? anyways, tmr's Gd friday but i have no plans lar... boring huh... wat to do... no $$$ yet.. still waiting for the pay lar... haha...

No one

2008-03-17T21:37:00.003+08:00

I just love this song, moved my heart and his....

NO ONE by Alicia Keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

results day

2008-03-15T14:51:00.002+08:00

got my results yesterday... it was as i expected C for micro... ok fine, i got a C+... which is fairly good for me... i'm not complaining... i was pretty confident this time, as the modules were lesser than the previous sem... i had a higher chance of getting more Bs... and so i did... 4B+... syukur alhamdulillah.... hehe... ;)
gpa also increased which is something i'm proud of... hey, once in awhile, sharing something gd feels so much better than sharing all those sad, moments....
anyways, i thought of treating myself to something, like Ben&Jerry ice cream or maybe even a nice, new pair of shoes.. (which i really need, its been so long that i bought myself a nice one)
and i really wanna spend the day with him, but things just have to go wrong and make me feel so shitty everytime when anything that involves him... i just cant have him for myself huh... all he wants, is to sit at home, coz everyone's out. its always like tat.... not everything is abt it...
i wanna go out but he can only make it at 5? so late... lagi bagus tak yar kuar...
argh... things just have to go wrong when gd stuffs happen.

i'm sorry, i didnt realise it..

2008-03-10T20:42:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry i realized it later than i should. girls, i know i've been complaining a lot lately but the arguments i had, made realize one thing. That i love him even more, so much more than whenever i think of him, i might bring me into tears. weird isnt it? well, i think i'm at the emotional side now at this time of the month. i saw a side of him that i rarely see. n i love it.
what was i thinking when i tot of leaving him? i cant just give up a relationship of 3 yrs just bcoz of a petty fight. yes, girls.... i did lots of thinking over the weekend... the fight on friday was quite petty coz i was hungry.. a hungry lady is an angry lady... he knows that...

too many arguments too little time

2008-03-08T01:17:00.001+08:00

argument yet again. 2 times in a week. tell me how worse can it get? i'm starting to consider and do some hard thinking on it. duno if it'll last.

a day with grans

2008-03-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

today was a visit to the doc for grans. there was no one available to take her to the doc for an assessment so mum told me to go since i was free. i woke up in the morning and got all ready to go but my aunt said i didnt have to anymore since my uncle wasnt working in the morning.
in the end, at ard 3pm, aunt called me to fetch grans at her hse. so i went and took grans to the doc.
I, being the same blur me, took a cab and told the driver the address of the clinic and not knowing where it is. haha...
When its all done, grans wanted to treat me to eat so we went to mukmin. since i was alone, pushing grans on a wheelchair, i got loads of stares and glances from loads of people. Almost everyone who passed by us, will looked at me pushing grans. it was weird at first and i got frustrated as usual.
After which, i hailed for a taxi to send my grans back. I got rejected by 2 taxis just bcoz there's a wheelchair tat they have to put in their bonnet. Bloody hell... plain excuses... change shift lar, bonnet got a lot of stuffs lar... bullshit... wait i complain, they all die!!!
luckily, the place we waited had a few taxis coming in... we drop at the shops nearby my grans hse... and guess wat, another snare and stare for a motorcyclist who rode by... he gave a glance and gave a sinister smile.... (malay say, sindir kind of smile, eee!! muka mintak kena sepak!!)
i feel so angry and pushing my grans isnt easy, ok? she's kinda heavy so if there's a step ahead, i have to jack up the wheelchair with her weight... not complaining but its not something tat ppl can laugh at or wat... I mean now, how often can u see a SG youngster pushing ard a wheelchair-bound elderly in public?
Ppl are taking granted when they have maids to do the job. I used to live with my grans(paternal), i know she didnt like the maid to help her. She prefer me n my siblings to spend time with her... talking about her, I really missed her and her stories....

2008-02-28T14:28:00.001+08:00

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