history repeats itself.

i know i have done lots of bad things in life. retribution is on its way. it could be here. being in a relationship is a joy at some point but it can be painful while we're at it. i have loved him with all my heart but i got hurt yet again. dad was right, we were just merely friends. no strings attached(tiada kaitan). he always wanted his space. i had given him and he gave me mine. yati was right too, in a relationship, someone will cheat on the other party, is either one. I have to learn it the hard way. No, he didnt sleep with another girl. but something else. biarlah rahsia(let it be a secret). umpteen times, i just couldnt take it anymore. the fact that i have give my heart to him, i was willing to do anything for him, except for losing weight (hahaha). maybe i lacked the beauty, body, wit, wisdom, sexiness, and all other things u can find in any clever-below60kg-pretty girl. other words, the perfect one. he just didnt think of me and tot on how wud i react. its been three years. how can i sustain for another few more years to get married? i tot he wud be different than the guys i know who only wanted sex. bloody idiotic morons!
as much as i wanna let go, my heart keeps clinging onto him. i feel weak and i hate it. wat wud life be without him?

hamster world

Brownie's thirsty, i think

Vanilla on the wheel & Brownie taking a nap

Vanilla playing hide n seek with IS

Vanilla having fun

Here's Vanilla having fun when Brownie's not watching....

IS's entertaining her while she's doing her thing...

sweetest things and the most fucked up things

my boyfy has been so sweet these days.. he's so romantic suddenly.. he promised a Valentine's date on a cable car... these lil' things are so sweet especially coming from him... ever since i know him, i know he's not the romantic type so i wasnt expecting anything from him...
we've been going out for more than 2 yrs, and this is the 1st time we are going to celebrate Valentine's Day... the other sweet thing he did, was actually, custom-made a ring for me... he engraved his name and mine... gave to me, after we spent a day together... how sweet is tat.....
i know... i know... i'm bragging about him... he did tat after i told him i wanted us to have a couple ring... but he came up with a better idea of making it himself...

and just the other day, on friday... he surprised me again with another ring... and this time, its a ring with 3 hearts.. he gave tat on our way home, in the train.... after a screwed up day at school, he gave me such a pleasant surprise.. i almost cried... he's freaking romantic lar... i still cant believe it.. and he's not to be taken for granted.... gosh....

ok...ok... gotta take time off... exams are coming... 2 papers.... but just 1 day out on V day.. tats all.. and i cant wait... muacks!!!

he scolded me, mum nagged at me, dad's lecturing me.

damn fucked up!

gross

I'm having goosebumps because of seeing this really groosss picture of this breast. I can still feel all my hair standing at the back of my neck..

my dear boyfy said its fake. but its still so disgusting and so 'geli' or giving me goosebumps... i just cant stand looking at it... imagining it as if its my own breast...

all thanks to the email i got from a friend. eeeeeee.....

lemme know wat u think.. whether its fake or real..

goodbye 2007, hello 2008

goodbye 2007, hello 2008
HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS...

MAY U GUYS HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD.

LOTS OF LOVE,

rhea