its over.

i'm in a confused state of mind. yes or no??

i dun wan to hurt him but looks like i did. all i want is for him to be happy and the best for us. which is to lead our own way of life now. he can now lead the life the way he always want. the space he wants, with no restrictions. i can live without worrying that my boyfriend has the hots for other girls.

i'm really sorry i've let u guys (u know who u r) down and that i've wronged him. i can't live with this guilt with him. knowing that it hurt him, it has also deteriorate our r'ship.

i've loved iskhandar zulkarnain more than i love myself. he's the 1st man to teach me the way of life and how cruel the world out there.

but i still believe he can live without me. i will deal with all the pain, regret, torment, sadness, lonliness, happines alone. guys, be there for him.

me? i just immerse myself with work. ot and more ot. i dont mind anyway.

so for now, no more love story.


***UPDATE***
we're back together with the help of friends.

fed-up

i'm so damn fed-up. tired. bored. stupid shit!

i hate this feeling!

no, its not boyfie. he's fine. keeping me happy here and there. but its my bloody surroundings! argh!!!!!