DareDevils Oei!! BAoc 9th-11th Apr

BAoc has come to an end. its been a hell of a time spending 3 days of activities. i'm freaking tired but i made new friends. i have to admit its so much better than my own BAoc last year. haha. memories are created, new friendship are born. and school starts on mon. hmm..

anyways, DD won best banner award. ouh, the pageant.. there's this girl from the avengers, i think, had really big boobies. and was wearing the v-neck dress. no bra, just dress to cover. fuhyo!!! so young got big breast! want to challenge me ar.. hahah...

my grp's performance was superb! i so enjoyed it. they are a great bunch of ppl. i know i didnt help much, but my praises are for them all, even the SCs.
congrats to Josephine for the best SC award.. haha... she was so damn shocked lar.. she didnt move like an inch when her name was announced!

c ya around, guys... we'll 'lepak' again soon!

*pics coming soon!*

draggy, tiring day (leave him or not to leave him??)

didnt get proper sleep last nite. slept ard 3am and still cant sleep properly. when i woke up, its alrdy 6am. sch stuffs isnt interesting, some talk from lecturers. got home early. i just wanna coop in my room. mood's not so good. still grumpy and down from what happen. talked to charlie abt this. even he said about the MSN thingy (the reason why me and my bro is blocked on his msn is, GET THIS, msn randomly blocked the contacts), is plain bullshit. how coan randomly be such a coincidence?

we talked over sms cause he's working. and everytime he said sorry, give him another chance, i would let him but it happens again.

journeys on the bus seemed short today. listening to my songs in my MP3 makes tears pooled in my eyes. i really dont know whether my mind's thinking straight today.

leave him or not to leave him??

i wanna get over this but i cant seem to get him out of my head. we've been together for 3 yrs, and to let go of this, makes me think and consider.

what a loser i am

how to know when your boyfriend's cheating on you. i have lots of questions in my mind right now. i just google it just now. so many popped up. i really feel like i'm such a loser right now. trust him? i'm trying to. or is it that he doesnt have the balls to break up with me?

i mean i still remember asking him for a break-up not too long ago. is he regretting it that i didnt really separated from him? (he never reads my blog so there's no chance he's reading this) why am i feeling this way? gd question. the answers are i went through his hp, my laptop internet history (cause he used it throughout the week), his MSN and his MSN history of conversations.

here's what i've find out,

1.he goes to this WAP chatting service, mygamma.com
i know he's been going to this chatting thingy but i just didnt know what/where it is from. i checked it out on sat on the web.

2.he spent the weekend at my place. i'm always waking up late these days (its the holidays) so what i got was him going to alamak.com. he chatted morning and night when i was sleeping, babe. but i dont know how long he was online.

3.his MSN chats are with 3 different girls but all are short ones lar. thats ok, i dont think that's a big issue. but it was last time.

OH oh!! here's the best part! he blocked me and my brother in MSN. am i that annoying??!! for god's sake, i'm his freaking GIRLFRIEND!
i couldn't be more shocked when i see that my contact was blocked.

fine, say whatever you want, i'm not trustworthy and i dont trust him cause i looked at his personal stuffs even though he doesnt look at mine.

FUCKING SO WHAT???!!!!!

tell me how to trust him like that (now i remember why i wanted to break up with him so many times and yes, there's more than a 1st, ok!)

so now i know i'm such a loser and my boyfriend thinks that i'm boring cause he doesnt talk to me when he's bored. and most of his hp msgs were other girls which i dont know of. and get this, they msg around the same time as me but he only replies me one or two words and msg a whole chunk to them instead. and yes, i look through his hp!!!
i dont freaking care now! invade his privacy, my ass!

a day out with family.

this is the 2nd wk in a row that my Oppa spent the weekend with my family.

i wanted so much to eat at Popeye's and i got to eat the fried chickens today. actually, like not enough. i want more of the fried chickens and the cajun fries.. whipped potato is also nice , and oh yar, not forgetting the coleslaw... hmmm... just talking about it makes me drool again.. hehehe...

Popeye's @ Changi Airport Terminal 3. 10 pcs of chicken for 5 persons eating was not enough.. hehe..
so before we went to another place to eat.. we walked around T3 and take a look at what's everyone fussing about.... photos to proof it...

booooooooring

call me arrogant, a snob or watever. i felt so out of place today. its just one of those days when no one talk to u. treat like an alien. and u start to think that everyone talking about you when u r not around. yes, today was that day.

had to go sch for rehearsals, and charles didnt turn up. syahid away for camp. who else can i talk to. but for those who know me, clearly knows that i rarely start a conversation unless they talked to me 1st. yar yar, they always say 'get out of your comfort zone', mingle with people around u. but what if, they dun want to talk to u when u actually tried to talk in the 1st place. i mean i dun deny that i talk very little but i did try.

by the end of thing, orh ok, it was ard evening. i just couldnt take it anymore. i got out of tat place and left. i went to meet my Oppa. he got dance practice at his colleague's place so i went over. it was close to DJ's house but i got lost and had to go back where i started from. finally when i reached the place, i felt relieved coz i know these people. yes yes, in my comfort zone even though its Oppa's colleagues. they are nice and harmless.

oh yar, oh yar... being the gd soul and all, i lent them my bag filled with my personal stuffs in it for the rehearsal. and when i got back, my shades were into TWO freaking pieces. argh!!!!! luckily, it's one side of the screw came out. i gotta fix it tmr. too tired to do it now, and too angry.. well, maybe not angry but just damm pissed!! "Dumb ass! pisses me off!"(adapted from Walter. Jeff Dunham's puppet, watch the vids lar)

thinking of spending time with Oppa tmr, but scared that he'll be tired from his event. hmm, i'm really thinking of treating him a nice meal. its been so long since i pamper him.

**Happy Birthday to CT Aishah**

my new K850i

i just got my new phone yesterday at SingTel's hello@shop. its the Sony Ericsson K850i. so cool. 5 megapixel camera. woohoo!! there's 3 buttons are sensor-button or is it the touch button. anyways, got it for 298 bucks. from my pay. hmm.. well, tats the big treat for me this time.

so right now, i'm wanna find a part time job so the money keeps rolling in. but its so hard to find a suitable job that wants a student. coz i'm so over f&b work and some retail work, just crap.

ouh, and my mio tv at home has KBS channel which is so cool lar. it has English subs for the drama. argh.. i'm so gonna be glued to the tv now. and not forgetting my new phone. hehe.. cant wait to take pictures with it. its totally like a digi cam ar.

lets see, wat else. ouh yes, i've changed my mobile number.

new look, babe!

hah, it took me almost a day to do this. i changed my blog template from the html to xml. i searched a few blog skins but for hours lar. hahah... i also added new links and videos. i'm going to put some pictures soon. ouh, and there's a stats counter to know how many people are viewing. though, my blog isnt a hit but kinda cool to have one. when i get bored, i'll change again. hehehe..

anyways, got my pay.. woohoo... i'm so getting that Sony Ericsson K850i tmr, if not, thurs. Oppa said we will get ERS money this month. duno whether its true or not. but we'll see.

at school, Baoc is coming. freshmen orientation lar for biz students @ NP. syahid and me sorta in charge of the dance performance. so i'll have to teach the rest of the people in our grp learn to dance. hehe... talking about dance, Oppa also dancing for this performance that he has at work. he's dancing to Flo-rida's Low, haha... the baoc's dance is Britney's new song, Break the ice and Soulja Boy's Crank that (soulja boy). and yes, its the dance from the song itself. ouh, school's starting soon....