plans

ok.. here's the thing... my job's finally over... things that i hafta do...
1. waiting for my pay (only with this, i can proceed to other stuff listed)
2. finding another part time job (but not urgent, for the fun of it)
3. lose some weight that i've gain (i always say this but never do it, I have to do it this time!)
4. go sch for cca points (argh!)
5. get the Sony Ericsson K850i phone (5 megapixel camera, babe)
6. buy something for my Oppa (its been some time i havent buy anything for him)
7. buy some new shoes (the flats ones & the wedges)
8. buy some new tops for sch (for mix & match)
9. colour or highlight my hair (still considering to do which one)
10. change my bed mattress (with my parents chipping in, hehe)

gosh, how like tat?

what a drag!

me and my hopes full of anxiety thinking tat today would be last of eating lunch and working at cisco... things just have to go wrong when he said tat we need to complete the job so he's extending the deadline till tuesday... gd news and bad... more money but more work and more cars... GOD! please have mercy on us..

this is by far THE most boring job tat i've ever done.. schoolwork wasnt this boring as i remembered seh.. haiz... wat did i do in my previous life to get this...?? anyways, tmr's Gd friday but i have no plans lar... boring huh... wat to do... no $$$ yet.. still waiting for the pay lar... haha...

No one

I just love this song, moved my heart and his....

NO ONE by Alicia Keys

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

results day

got my results yesterday... it was as i expected C for micro... ok fine, i got a C+... which is fairly good for me... i'm not complaining... i was pretty confident this time, as the modules were lesser than the previous sem... i had a higher chance of getting more Bs... and so i did... 4B+... syukur alhamdulillah.... hehe... ;)
gpa also increased which is something i'm proud of... hey, once in awhile, sharing something gd feels so much better than sharing all those sad, moments....
anyways, i thought of treating myself to something, like Ben&Jerry ice cream or maybe even a nice, new pair of shoes.. (which i really need, its been so long that i bought myself a nice one)
and i really wanna spend the day with him, but things just have to go wrong and make me feel so shitty everytime when anything that involves him... i just cant have him for myself huh... all he wants, is to sit at home, coz everyone's out. its always like tat.... not everything is abt it...
i wanna go out but he can only make it at 5? so late... lagi bagus tak yar kuar...
argh... things just have to go wrong when gd stuffs happen.

i'm sorry, i didnt realise it..

i'm sorry i realized it later than i should. girls, i know i've been complaining a lot lately but the arguments i had, made realize one thing. That i love him even more, so much more than whenever i think of him, i might bring me into tears. weird isnt it? well, i think i'm at the emotional side now at this time of the month. i saw a side of him that i rarely see. n i love it.
what was i thinking when i tot of leaving him? i cant just give up a relationship of 3 yrs just bcoz of a petty fight. yes, girls.... i did lots of thinking over the weekend... the fight on friday was quite petty coz i was hungry.. a hungry lady is an angry lady... he knows that...

too many arguments too little time

argument yet again. 2 times in a week. tell me how worse can it get? i'm starting to consider and do some hard thinking on it. duno if it'll last.

a day with grans

today was a visit to the doc for grans. there was no one available to take her to the doc for an assessment so mum told me to go since i was free. i woke up in the morning and got all ready to go but my aunt said i didnt have to anymore since my uncle wasnt working in the morning.
in the end, at ard 3pm, aunt called me to fetch grans at her hse. so i went and took grans to the doc.
I, being the same blur me, took a cab and told the driver the address of the clinic and not knowing where it is. haha...
When its all done, grans wanted to treat me to eat so we went to mukmin. since i was alone, pushing grans on a wheelchair, i got loads of stares and glances from loads of people. Almost everyone who passed by us, will looked at me pushing grans. it was weird at first and i got frustrated as usual.
After which, i hailed for a taxi to send my grans back. I got rejected by 2 taxis just bcoz there's a wheelchair tat they have to put in their bonnet. Bloody hell... plain excuses... change shift lar, bonnet got a lot of stuffs lar... bullshit... wait i complain, they all die!!!
luckily, the place we waited had a few taxis coming in... we drop at the shops nearby my grans hse... and guess wat, another snare and stare for a motorcyclist who rode by... he gave a glance and gave a sinister smile.... (malay say, sindir kind of smile, eee!! muka mintak kena sepak!!)
i feel so angry and pushing my grans isnt easy, ok? she's kinda heavy so if there's a step ahead, i have to jack up the wheelchair with her weight... not complaining but its not something tat ppl can laugh at or wat... I mean now, how often can u see a SG youngster pushing ard a wheelchair-bound elderly in public?
Ppl are taking granted when they have maids to do the job. I used to live with my grans(paternal), i know she didnt like the maid to help her. She prefer me n my siblings to spend time with her... talking about her, I really missed her and her stories....