stressed out but loved

i have been posting lots of happy moments lately. so now, i'm posting a rather on-the-other-side of emotions. which is apparently not only sad, but anger, frustration and rage. all mixed together like the famous dish here in Sg, rojak.

its been really stressful these days. school's back and i hardly go for lessons. the 1st week, i only went to sch for 2 days. don't ask me why... i hate to answer. there are really bossy people out there that i just cant stand. and its the start of a new term and i didn't really feel the holidays. it sorta passes by. so some adjustments there. plus, this is wer i become a bummer who does nothing. yar, i have personal things to attend to. yes! and dont ask what is it. just leave the personal stuff aside, can?

anyways, projects deadline are nearing and it is NOT the best feeling ever. i hate deadlines. why must there be such stupid things? back to it, projects, projects, projects! how i loathe it so much?! on top of that, assignments come in to pile up the workload. as if tutorials aren't sufficient enough.

i'm stressed with school work and home. arguments at home is so frustrating when the blame is pushed to me. makes me guilty lar, makes me feel unwanted lar. its like the worst feeling u can get after all the stress with sch shit!

i have no one else to complain to(except here) but pour it all out to my Oppa. i cried and told him how i felt. he's not the most romantic boyfriend u can ask for but he gives advice and gives me a 'slapping' on reality. facts that are real and what's gonna happen. even though, he may seem harsh but i know he's concern abt me and he really cares.

i've always complain how unromantic he is and how he doesn't understand the situation. when every time i talked to him, its always been a one-way communication. but today, he was feeling me y'all! (in the words of an african american)

i guess he's the one who understands me and supports me emotionally. i know its very dependent of me but whatever i do, i always think of him.