life goes on.... let it be a lesson learnt (notes to loved ones)

been busy with loads of stuff.... school's just started and finished up raya visiting.... ok, i didn't went out with 2 or 3 outings with my old frens.... coz many of the outing dates clash... anyhow, something major happened recently and its somewhat old news but it made an impact on my closest friends life....

here's the thing, this year i made friends with really good people whom i treasure and wouldn't take granted for... i know its kinda too early to say but we've grown so close... the 6 of us... yes, made up of 3 couples... we've been close and spent most of our time together...

so what happened was, 1 of them asked for a break-up with the bf... and didnt turn up for our house-visiting outing... which made the rest wondered why.. coz we all were looking forward to it... to visit each and everyone's house....

3 of us girls became so close like sisters(u know my GFF).. but me and the other one didn't know a thing about the break-up... yes, we shared our problems together coz our BFs are the best of friends... so we tot we could work things out together but it turned out otherwise... I know it was hard for my guy friend to accept that change but so did my GF who initiated the break-up.... they were together for 5 freaking years... i dont think it would be easy for both of them to endure the pain and the hurt... i'm not going into details of why and what happened between them.. its their privacy... i respect them and their privacy... its between the 6 of us...

it was really hard for us girls, me and my other GF to accept the change... I, personally, was in tears when we were trying to solve or rather find the reasons behind the cause of it.... and cried again before going to sleep... somehow, i felt the pain between them coz we've really grown so freaking close... seriously, i never felt this with any of my other friends.... like we're tearing apart... ok, wait... yar, i remembered i cried when i fought with my friends back in ITE and sec sch... ok lar.. i'm soft-hearted... but this is someone else breaking up, not me... its completely different lar....

anyhow, its over.... my BF kept telling me that its over(btwn them, not us) and to get that in my head... yes. I have to adapt to the change and i really hope the 2 of them can adapt as well... to be hurt and all, is every difficult to endure and pass through this period...

and also, its really a lesson for me that anything can happen in life... even though you're together with someone for 5 years doesn't mean you're gonna be with him/her for the rest of your life.... its really sad, btw... to know that someone who truly love, will leave u whether it is ur bf/gf or ur close family members... cherish them while we can... dont ever take them for granted...

i love my family, my BF and my friends!!!

P.S>>>>>>

to my FAMILY : i know i'm not always at home... but u all are always in my heart and mind.. esp, mom and dad... thank u for all the sacrifice u've done for me... life has been hard for all of us these years but we all are happy with wat we have... to dear sis, please always remember our parents whom bring us to this world... and to my lil(not lil anymore) bro, please study hard, ok. u too have a whole new future waiting for u guys out there... i'm going to mine soon....

BOYFIE: 3 years together, u have taught me countless things about life and other stuffs as well... u've always been my motivation and my support.. the only one who truly knows me other than my parents... my family have grown to love u... i hope i can too with ur family... i dont know how things will go btwn us but i'll always hope for the best for us... life is really unpredictable when fate brought us together after being schoolmates in sec sch... memories, arh!! i love u, baby... always and forever... until the end of time....

NH: i'm sorry that i said things which u dont want to say to others but i hope we still can go out as usual with ND... we're always gonna be there for u, ok? don't think abt wat other say esp. him. thanks for the times when i needed u when i fought with my BF....

ND: thanks for the times when i needed u when i fought with my BF.... i love u, babe! meet up soon, ok? and don't keep F angry always!

I & F: u're the best guy friends a girl could ask for... but u guys are still my BF's best of friends... thanks for giving advise and tipswhen i needed one.... heheh.. =)

OMG! the list goes on.......................

SUE: i really cherish the times we have together... at sch, at ur home studying... i really appreciate all ur efforts and concern towards... i know i tease u a lot but i just got used to it and i'll try to cut down, ok? witout u, i won't be able to make through poly!
(and when seeking forgiveness, we cried.... i cant believe we've grown so close)

CHAR, SHAY & CHARlie: hey guys, poly life wudn't be complete without u guys... let's be this way now till we end poly and hope to last even after that.....

D girls(Dj, Noli, Hani): i miss u guys... but things dont seem the way it used to be anymore... everyone of us lead a different life now... i know everytime nak kuar, aku tak jadi... i dont know y it always turned out like tat.... but i really have to attend something urgent on the days we were supposed to meet... i'm really sorry... but whatever it is, i wish u all the best and dont forget this friend of urs....

Sec sch mates: what happened to us? i feel everyone's falling apart... nobody has time for everybody... its like always a few of us when we try to meet... =(

that's all la.... love u guys for reading this and love the people who are still with you... cherish those who are gone and let them be memories....