resolutions, wishes??

anyone??

To welcome 2008

I've been in the other side of emotions lately.. always feeling angry, frustrated, easily irritated. I get angry at a certain thing so fast and got over it after a while. When I come to think of it, why did I get so angry over it? shit lar, everytime I expected something. It will always let me down and made me feel disappointed. The feeling of hurt and frustration is boiling everytime I think of it.

I just cant understand my own feelings. Even with my boyfriend, he cant seem to understand me. Hate it when he made a promise and breaks it later. Feels like shit, like garbage. I know its overly described but I just cant help it. Let's just say things arent like the way it used to be. I really think that maybe he's gotten tired of me or something. All my rage and short temper digust him.

I cant believe I'm saying this but I feel so sure that maybe he deserves someone better than me. I feel I'm being selfish with my attitude that I wanna spent all my time with him. which also means spending his time with me.

Surprise, surprise... I'm not replying his msg today.. when I always wait for him to text me everyday.. sometimes I feel so silly and stupid to wait for him.. when he doesnt even know I'm waiting for him and expecting him..

I guess its time for me not to wait anymore...........

BReeKS!

Sunday, 23 Dec

at Breeks! cafe with mum, untle9 and bokji

brownie with vanilla ice cream, yum yum

strawberry something... hehe

raspberry tea for mum..

mother & daughter.. somehow ppl say we look alike.. but i beg to differ..

wait, untle 9...

how beautiful it is before its been gobble down... haha

this is my brownie, all that calories!

i'm ready to have this treat.. DONT stop me!

MERRY CHRISTMAS, Y'ALL!

i'm so bored. i'm at home, alone.. waiting to be rot and rusted... like an abandoned piece of metal... only with maggots, flies, cockroaches and those disgusting insects... eeuuww...

ok i dont wish for that to happen.. but i'm just bored to death.. after watching an Hindi movie, its only 2hrs, not 3.. and i couldnt stand after starting to watch another one... when it started to sing, i give up... went to my bed, and toss and turn.. i cant get to sleep...

phone rings, dad's outside, nobody open the door.. me=the maid...

boyfy out, bro out, mum out, dad sleep, sis out working..

me??? home, bored...

ok, i'm gonna eat till i'm so full that i cant stuff in anymore...

no one

i dont hate him anymore, only for that moment. how can i hate him? deep down inside, i love him too much to let him go... cant bear to see him with another girl in his arms. no words can describe how i feel for him... even though he doesnt show me that he loves me, i know it when he scolds me, advise me, nags at me... he does it in a stern way.. tats his way... only i would understand... somehow, i thanked God for meeting us together...

i love you, darling.. nothing can stop me from loving you...

NO ONE - ALICIA KEYS

"I just want you close

Where you can stay forever

You can be sure

That it will only get better

You and me together

Through the days and nights

I don't worry cause

Everything gonna be alright

People keep talking

They can say what they like

But all I know is everything's gonna be alright

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I'm feeling

No one no one no one

Can get in the way of what I feel for you You you

Can get in the way of what I feel for you"

i hate him.
i hate him.
i hate him.
i hate him.
i hate him.

y does he always have to do this? always finding faults with me. putting things as i'm always in the wrong and he always right.

i hate him.
i hate him.

A date after so long

went to watch National Treasure: Book of Secrets

followed by a wonderful meal at Fish & Co.

thanks, baby. muacks muacks

get ready to tuck in!

bought himself an ADIDAS watch which cost 102 bucks after discount..

best clam chowder soup i've ever tasted!

muscles or biceps?

Aye! fish & chips anyone?

raisin rice, my fav!

home. sh*t, i got a zit! his new look.. wat ya tink of de specs??

pics from JB

all ready for a morning swim

someone call the fashion police

doa tidur pls..

trio @gelang patah

one person smiling alone

tesco promo

when our forces combines, we are......

Asian Idol

CONGRATS to HADY MIRZA as the 1st ASIAN idol... i just went to youtube to watch hady's performance show but i saw something else instead.. i saw comments about our 1st asian idol.. very discouraging and negative. yes, who would have thought that our sg idol, hady to win asian idol.

I, myself, was shocked to see hady won.. i cried a tear... so touching.. 1 thing about hady i like, is that he's very humble.. he has almost all the right reasons to win.. he got the package la..

i know some of you will beg to differ.. but he has done singapore proud.. like my boyfy said (even though he prefers hady than taufik), under some circumstances, sporeans may have voted umpteen times so hady won.. maybe true or not... i dont care... 'the tribe has spoken'..

in fact, all the idols has their own unique way of performing, its just Hady has won many viewer's votes... even me.. i voted hady and jac... heheheh

tell me what u think...

tired but its ok

hey, been out and about the last 2 days. went to JB. yes, went to celebrate mum's bday.. i'm pretty sure she's very touched... we went to 'singgah selalu' makan plc... there's a DJ booth so my aunt got the dj to announce mum's birthday... the whole mkn plc was singing the birthday song for mum... so noisy and mum was embarassed lar.. hahahha... so happy to see mum being so happy... heheh.. overall, the trip was funny, touched, cocked-up and tiring... haiz.. once in a while... going back again to have my haircut.. i'll post the pics once i accumulate it.. till then..

p.s, i'm glad my sis is going to do something to make up for mum's birthday that she missed... shh.. but dun tell anyone we're going to buy mum an espirit watch worth 149 bucks... sis's idea.. my sis isnt bad after all..

where you've been

My sis hasnt been coming home for the past few days. I dont think she wished my mum on her birthday. mum must be very sad. when will she changed her ways? everyday hoping and wishing she just think of this family, knowing that everyone cared for her. her actions, well, sometimes, annoyed us. or maybe sometimes i annoyed her too. she doesnt confide in me anymore like she used to. although she's a secretive person, we used to talk a lot before we sleep at nite. maybe because we sleep in different room now. i wonder what is it really she want in life? even though, when we're outside, we may look happy and all. but the truth is tat, we seem to have a problem here.

i dont know if she' still with her boyfy. yes, in case, some of u know, that its the same one. i dont like him and will never like. to my sis, if you're reading this, dont bear a grudge against me. my close friends know wat that jerk did to our family. it was hell. an dto have him in our family, its a NO NO.. i just hoped she get over him.. tats so many guys out there... better looking(hehe), with better future.. blah blah..

please, i hope everything will be fine but just not too late.

Mum's Birthday

Yes.. its past 1 in the morning and i'm still awake.. Mum's birthday and was like any other day. got my laptop back froom boyfy. He's gonna have the laptop over the weekend.. hurray hurray lar dia..

Mum brought the issue between one of my aunties with my cousins. Some old issues again. I just dont understand. Until when they want to 'jaga tepi kain orang' aka being a busybody or literally means taking care of other people's linen. For goodness' sake lar, grow up and out of tat KUNO hole, pls. I'm not being rude but the kids are old enough to think for themselves. And these aunties wont just leave them alone. Haiyo! and they wouldnt react like this, if not for the aunties' actions and dirty mouths. I believe everyone knows how aunties' mouths can be.

These issues are always being brought up by mum because I'm close with these cousins of mine. Well, everyone has their right to do whatever they want. No one can stop them. Not even their parents. So how?

Let's just wait and see.

I'm back!

Its been so long since I last blogged. I have been so busy with life, esp. with my boyfy and "school. OK. most of the time, its bofy lar. What can I say he made such an impact in my life. ("ku mencintai mu lebih dari apa pun, ku mencintai mu sedalam-dalam hatiku"). So many things happen since I graduated from ITE. ITE was the one of the best parts of my life. It was fun, no doubt. I miss my girls lar, and my crazy class, QA. but not all I miss lar.

After graduation, I successfully got into Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Which was a surprise obviously.. I thought it was an April Fool's joke by somone i know, but it wasnt. Such a DELIGHTFUL surprise.

When school first starts, I wasn't sure who will be in the same class as me. I was thinking I have to start everything from scratch.. haiz.. but thanks god, there's SUE, CHAR, SYAHID AND CHARLES.

Sue and Char was previously from the same 2nd year class back in ITE Simei. Sue and me was in QA. Yes. Finally, someone I know. Syahid and Charles, was in ITE Bishan previously which was many years ago, they went to NS after that. And now, back in Poly together. Thanks to Sob, we to know Syahid. Now, we're like practically going everywhere together. The 5 of us. Poly life's getting better lar, except for the modules, I'm just so screwed at the moment.

At the end of the 1st sem, my slip disc came back. It happened during my exam period. I was so freaking scared I couldn't do the exam. It was such a dugaan. As much as I hate, I was so weak and sensitive. I dont wish for it to happen again.

Anyway, back to present time. Its 2nd semester already. Common tests over. Stupid killer paper. I"m so freaking screwed lar. I'm kinda scared of the results. ARGH!! So rite now, I'm basically doing nothing at home. I quit my IKEA job due to my slip disc, and cant find anything that allows me to sit down when I'm working. But I did found a job at school, and its only starts during April.

So now its the holidays, 2 weeks. I'm going to JB for the weekend. MUM's birthday today, so we're celebrating during the weekend.

till then, more of it soon..